I Became an Extra Who Died Instead of the Main Character - Chapter 44
44 – Three Reasons
All classes for that day are over.
Class 1 is empty as all the students have left the classroom.
“So. Why did you call me. Lian Kindred?”
My homeroom teacher, Professor Javert, and I were still there.
“If you’re going to talk about your eyesight, I’ve already heard from Principal Lapis, so there’s no need to.”
“······Did you know?”
“Students who can’t pay attention in class tend to stand out.”
“I’m sorry about that.”
I apologized to Professor Javert.
It wasn’t intentional, but it’s true that I couldn’t concentrate on the class I had to focus on because of my eyesight.
But it wasn’t because of her eyesight that I asked for a private meeting with her.
“Could you write my resignation letter?”
This is it. To withdraw from Selenium Academy.
“······I can only write a letter of withdrawal, but it will be difficult to accept your withdrawal if there is no good reason.”
Fortunately, Professor Javert gave me a pretty positive answer.
I was worried that saying no at all would draw the line. It was fortunate that it wasn’t.
Although you need a good reason. It was no big deal.
As Professor Javert said, this is what I was thinking the whole time I couldn’t concentrate in class.
“Even if I stayed at this academy, I would have done some harm, it wouldn’t help anyone.”
“······Specifically.”
As if that wasn’t enough, Professor Javert demanded further explanation.
“First of all, my eyesight is a problem.”
“····.”
“If it’s a general theory class, I don’t know if I can do it somehow, but due to the nature of Selenium Academy, which has many classes that are conducted in groups, it will be a damage to the members.”
“······Are there more?”
Professor Javert asks if that’s the end. I immediately started talking about the second reason why I should drop out.
“Professor, you know what I’m talking about.”
“I know to some extent.”
Rumors about Lian Kindred, who is famous for being the worst in the Empire. I listed this as my second reason for dropping out.
“Almost every student knows how I’ve lived. If I stay here, Selenium Academy’s reputation will only suffer.”
“······Next.”
I even heard my rumors as a reason. Professor Javert insisted on giving another reason as if it was still not enough.
And I had to conflict.
‘Should I even say this?’
There was one more reason I thought of, but it was a secret I hadn’t told anyone yet.
To be honest, I thought that those two things were enough.
It would be normal for a student to drop out if he or she wants it just because he lost his sight.
But for some reason Professor Javert didn’t accept it. I ended up having to tell you one last reason I never told anyone.
“······I am terminally ill.”
“····.”
“Probably three years. No, less than that. Before I graduate from the academy in my third year, death will come for me.”
“······I see.”
“Are you still going to accept my resignation?”
I wonder if my last reason was shocking. Professor Javert didn’t say anything as if he was thinking about it.
‘I didn’t know that I would even say that it was a time limit.’
This was the first time I had told anyone that I was close to dying.
Ifrit was the only one who knew about this, it was because he was able to know my physical condition because he signed a contract with me.
Because I’ve never told anyone else about this. No one except me and Ifrit would know.
‘Maybe that girl might know.’
‘······If you’re talking about Adele. You wouldn’t know.’
‘The contractor knew that he had taken his bottle and even returned like the contractor. Don’t you know it unconditionally?’
Ifrit’s opinion was reasonable.
Adele has already told me with her mouth that she knows that she has returned and that I took her bottle with my own magic.
Perhaps you read my diary. Other than that, it’s impossible for Adele to know all that.
‘······Should have been burned as well.’
Anew, regret came flooding back.
Because I hurt Adele earlier because of the diary.
If that diary hadn’t been left, even if Adele had returned, she wouldn’t have known that I had taken Adele’s bottle, so I wouldn’t feel guilty about it like I do now.
‘······What does that mean now?’
But that was in the past. It was too late to regret it now.
I already hurt Adele again, and he brought up the idea of breaking up the engagement and not being involved anymore.
So I brushed off my thoughts about the diary and explained why Adele didn’t know that I was terminally ill.
‘Because Adele probably knows that the reason I couldn’t go to the academy in his previous life was because of his illness.’
If you think about it, it was a simple reason.
Adele, who may have memories of his previous life due to his return, must have known that the reason I couldn’t enter the academy was because of his illness.
Since I entered the academy this time, I must have accepted that the speed of the disease was slower than in my previous life.
Even though they knew that my physical condition was not good, they probably didn’t know that I was a terminally ill woman.
‘······Isn’t that just the wish of the contractor?
Of course, as Ifrit said, this family was just a home with strong wishes for it to be like this.
A really smart Adele could already have known that I was dying.
Still, I didn’t pay much attention.
‘Because the relationship has already ended.’
Because my relationship with Adele has already been completely severed.
Even if Adele wants to put it back together. Because i won’t accept
One mistake was enough.
As I was clearing my mind once again, Professor Javert began to speak as if his worries were over.
“It came as a surprise to me that you are terminally ill… But it will be difficult for me to accept your resignation.”
However, the words that came out after thinking about it were that they would not accept my dropout. I thought I would take it for granted, so I had no choice but to ask stupidly.
“Why?”
“It’s simple. All three of the reasons you gave for dropping out are not reasons for dropping out.”
“Could you elaborate?”
Vision, rumor, time limit. I thought it was reason enough for everyone to drop out.
I couldn’t understand Professor Javert, who still couldn’t accept it.
“Your first sight. How many blind people do you think have attended Selenium Academy so far?”
“······There must be a lot.”
I immediately realized why the first reason was not accepted.
As Professor Javert said, there was no way I was the only blind person who had attended the academy.
It’s for those who have poor eyesight just by looking at the staff that Principal Lapis gave you. It was only natural that someone with poor eyesight had attended the academy before.
“How would you explain the second and third reasons?”
But there are still two reasons why I should drop out.
A rumor that couldn’t be worse than my teeth, and the time I had left.
But Professor Javert began to speak without hesitation as if those were no big deal either.
“If it’s a rumor, it’s no different from the first one. How many students do you think have had bad rumors so far?”
Professor Javert explained for the same reasons as the first, but this time I had an excuse to refute.
“Aren’t I the worst among the students I’ve been to?”
The reason that there is no student with more serious rumors than me. Even if you search the imperial history books, there will be no one with worse rumors than me.
But at Professor Javert’s words. I’m at a loss for words.
“······So. Did you do it yourself?”
“····.”
“People asked if all the rumors about you were true. Lian Kindred.”
Of course it wasn’t true.
Because most of the rumors about me were inflated and exaggerated rumors, and the things I did myself have already been forgiven by personally visiting and apologizing.
It was difficult for me to insist on dropping out for this reason, so I came up with the last reason.
“······What about the last reason?”
The reason I will die before graduation.
Is it possible to refute this reason? They say that if you are an academy student, you will die without graduating, which is a must.
Professor Javert seemed to have the same thoughts as me, so he took a little time.
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Convinced that I had won this battle of dropping out, I tried to bring up the idea of writing a letter of resignation.
“If you have nothing more to say, write my resignation letter…”
“······First grade.”
Professor Javert’s mouth, which seemed to be firmly closed and would not open, opened in vain.
“If you feel the same way after the first year, I will write a letter of withdrawal.”
“…One year…?”
“Yeah, isn’t this enough?”
“····.”
Even though I didn’t think I had to accept that offer to stay for one more year.
I suddenly had a question.
“Why are you preventing me from dropping out?”
Why does this person want me not to drop out?
From the academy’s point of view, it would be beneficial if rumors sent out terrible students.
Why would you want to leave someone like me in school?
A time-limited extra like me.
“Because it makes no sense for a teacher to give up on a student.”
“····.”
“That’s all.”
With that said. I could only nod my head quietly.
I couldn’t see because I couldn’t see. Perhaps Professor Javert was laughing when he said that.
Suddenly, I had an idea.
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Dagdak- Dagdak-
A carriage with a family of three riding on it.
A normal family would talk amicably about where they are going.
Only silence lingered in the Kindred family’s carriage.
“·······Lian.”
All three of them were thinking of someone they would soon meet again.
Tomorrow was the first day of the monumental open class of Selenium Academy.