I Can’t Run Away From the Girl Who Saved Me - Chapter 215



215 – EPILOG – I can’t run away from the woman who saved me.

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I felt really sorry for Sylvia.

Even though it was for her sake, our last conversation was almost like an argument, and I was regretting it later.

Wouldn’t it have been better to just say I love you and break up?

Should I have at least given the child a name before leaving?

It may be useful, but it would have been nice to at least give directions to the nearest town.

I regretted all the words I had missed.

However, if I had not said those last words to Sylvia, it would have left me with deep regret.

Sylvia deserves to be happy now.

Even if she was a single mother with a child, Sylvia’s looks would shine anywhere, her achievements would be praised anywhere, and her skills would allow her to make a living anywhere.

She can live a happier life with a better person than me.

That’s why I left her a will telling her to meet someone else.

‘…forget me.’

But to be completely honest…

I wanted to tell you not to forget me.

I wanted to beg her not to meet any other men.

I wanted you to remember me forever.

I wanted to ask you to swear your love.

Of course I wanted to die back then, but now I want to stay with Sylvia a little longer.

I wanted to confess like that.

Of course, I would never have said anything like that because I knew it would be a new curse to her, but that was my honest and pitiful truth.

‘Still… it’s okay now… it’s too late anyway.’

I sighed.

Even after death, I still have so many distracting thoughts.

It seems that the habit of studying and reading in a corner of the room throughout one’s life will not go away even after death.

‘It might have been a little cool. Well then… Wait a minute,’

Now that I think about it, what am I thinking about right now?

Wasn’t I dead?

Have you become a ghost?

Or, have I really come to the afterlife or hell?

No, it can’t be hell.

Because I clearly saw my family coming out to greet me.

There’s no way Layla is in hell.

I slowly opened my eyes to find my family.

…

You opened your eyes?

“Ugh,”

When I opened my eyes, the light that entered my field of vision was so blinding that I grimaced and let out a small groan.

The pupil was out of focus and kept losing focus.

My eyes had a hard time adjusting to the light, to the point where I couldn’t help but think that this might be what it would feel like if I came out of a dark cave after spending a very long time there.

As I was slowly adjusting to the light, barely able to keep my eyes open, the focus gradually changed into the face of a beautiful woman.

Brilliant platinum hair that flows down like a waterfall.

Pure white skin that is almost transparent.

Solid muscles and rough fingers that are hard to imagine from his appearance and skin.

Beautiful blue eyes like jewels.

Her beautiful lips, which make you want to kiss her right away, are trembling and she is barely holding back tears.

“…Sylvia?”

“Come on… Ash.”

Hot tears fell from Sylvia’s face as she looked down at me as I lay there, and fell down my cheeks.

I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on.

Am I dead? Or did I miraculously survive?

Did she come to the afterlife where I am? Or did I stay in this world where she is?

I couldn’t figure out what it was, but I reached out and wiped her tears away.

As his fingertips brushed the area under her eyes, Sylvia flinched and burst into laughter, shedding more tears.

“It’s Ash. It’s really Ash. It hasn’t changed at all.”

“…Sylvia is still pretty.”

“Ash!”

Sylvia hugged me tightly.

Her sleek hair covered my face.

I ran my nose through her hair and barely managed to get my lips through it.

“… Sylvia, what happened? Am I not dead?”

“…”

“Sylvia?”

“You don’t have to worry about it.”

“…?”

“I won’t be separated from Ash anymore. Never!”

Sylvia hugged me tightly.

Unlike her usual habit of always being careful to adjust her strength to account for the difference in strength between us, she was now hugging me so tightly that it was almost painful.

I tapped Sylvia on the back of her head and slowly ran my hands through her smooth hair.

“…What happened?”

“…”

“Tell me.”

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“If you tell, Ash will get angry.”

What is it,

What did you do?

I said this to Sylvia, placing my hand on her head to calm her down.

“I won’t be angry.”

“really?”

“Yeah, really.”

Sylvia hesitated for a moment at my answer, which was so cool, and then slowly began to open her mouth.

“I wanted to see Ash. So.”

“so…?”

“I saved him.”

“…what?”

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The day Ash died.

Sylvia hugged the corpse of her lover, no, her husband, who was sleeping in her arms with all her might.

The person who caused her the most trouble in her life.

The person who pushed her the most.

The person she loved the most.

The one person Sylvia loved the most.

And, the person who loved Sylvia the most.

But paradoxically, the last words the man left behind were a request for her to forget herself and love someone else.

“… Ash.”

I’m so angry and so sad,

There were no tears at all, which should have been tears of anger or sadness.

All the tears that needed to flow had already been shed while talking to Ash.

Sylvia’s blue eyes were as empty as the sky.

“… too bad.”

Sylvia’s hoarse, cracked voice echoed hollowly in the uselessly large room.

It had been a decent bedroom when I was with Ash, but as soon as he was gone, it was a very empty space.

Sylvia held Ash’s body tightly and kissed him on the lips.

While there was still warmth on his skin, while there was still a breath of air in his lungs.

Sylvia buried her nose in Ash’s nape, licking his neck gently, then kissed him again, chasing his scent that she would never feel again if not now.

Each time he repeated the process, Ash’s skin grew colder and colder.

Sylvia struggled, hugging Ash’s body as if trying to hold on to his fading life.

But unfortunately, Sylvia was not crazy enough to not realize that it was just a pointless struggle.

“… no.”

pain.

The pain she had forgotten immediately ran up Sylvia’s spine again.

A hell beyond hell.

Torture beyond torture.

Loneliness was threatening to engulf Sylvia once again.

Sylvia hugged Ash’s body as tightly as she could, like a little girl hugging a teddy bear.

“It’s scary… Already… As soon as Ash left… It’s so scary…”

Sylvia whispered in Ash’s ear.

“Ash was wrong… I can’t live without Ash. Not for a moment… Not for a single moment… So. Come back… Please… Ash, Ash… Don’t go… Don’t go. Don’t go… Please… You can’t leave me like this, you can’t…”

Ash didn’t answer.

The only answer that came out of him was warmth dissipating into the air.

Sylvia hugged Ash’s body tighter.

It was more like a gesture of trying to squeeze Ash’s body between his ribs than a hug.

“Ugh!”

Sylvia gritted her teeth at the sudden dull pain in her abdomen.

It was because my pregnant stomach was being crushed hard.

The traces Ash left behind stirred inside Sylvia’s stomach.

“… baby.”

The child kicked Sylvia’s stomach.

It seemed as if he was asking what on earth he was doing outside.

My father was dead, but I couldn’t hate this child who was trying to live, but at the same time, I couldn’t hate this child who was proving what kind of relationship I had with Ash and how much they loved each other.

Is this what motherly love is like?

Sylvia laughed bitterly.

You want me to live with this kid?

Ash, is that what you want from me?

Do you want me to love this child as much as I love you?

“… no.”

Sylvia shook her head, looking at Ash’s face, her eyes comfortably closed.

“Ash, I told you that I love you more than you love me… You never knew, after all, how much I loved you, how my feelings for you rotted and torn me inside.”

At that moment, Ash’s last words suddenly flashed through my mind one after another.

I thought that this might be the kind of revolving lantern that people witness when they are about to die.

what?

What am I trying to see now?

Why are the words Ash left behind spinning around in my head so confusingly?

You want me to reminisce?

The last conversation you had with him?

Are you telling me to look back on my miserable life, where I was sentenced to a miserable breakup at a time when there was not enough time to whisper sweet nothings?

Sylvia was getting good at tormenting even her own head.

At that moment, one of Ash’s voices that had been running wild in Sylvia’s head caught her attention.

It felt like in an instant, all language except that one sentence disappeared.

‘Now the curse is lifted, and there is no more Demon King.’

Ash’s words were playing over and over again in my head.

“There is no… curse…”

That fucking curse that was in Sylvia’s eyes.

The curse had two main effects.

One is a contagious disease that can be transmitted to others through eye contact.

And the other one is to protect Sylvia from dying.

“… I see.”

Sylvia lamented her foolishness.

The answer to Ash’s mischievous riddle has finally been found.

“The curse… has been lifted…”

Sylvia looked at her own face in the mirror, holding Ash.

The empty blue eyes were staring straight into his own.

“I can die now too.”

Sylvia supported Ash’s back and calves with both arms.

Sylvia, who had just gotten out of bed, looked at the huge building standing outside the window.

The mansion of the Earl of Goldfield.

If Sylvia were to fall headfirst from up there, no matter how strong her body was, her neck would break and she would die instantly.

Of course, the baby in the womb also dies.

But it didn’t matter.

“Together… I’ll take our child with me and go see him.”

There was no way Sylvia would hesitate when faced with the only way to see Ash again.

There was no need to make up one’s mind or make detailed plans.

Before Ash came into Sylvia’s life, suicide was one of her hobbies, so she was able to throw herself into it naturally, like flowing water.

“… Don’t be so angry. Okay?”

Sylvia kissed Ash’s cheek while he was in her arms, then slowly walked towards the door.

That was when.

“Sit down now.”

A strong wind suddenly blew into the room and pushed Sylvia’s body backwards.

Sylvia fell flat on her face on the bed.

“…!”

“What were you trying to do just now?”

“Pia…”

“What were you trying to do!”

Pia appeared before Sylvia with a ferocious expression showing her teeth.

Pia, who had started to appear blurry to Sylvia during her pregnancy, was now able to see her clearly enough to recognize her expression as she was full-term.

No, maybe it’s not Sylvia who can see Pia, but the child in her stomach.

Because this child has inherited Ash’s blood.

Pia had vertical wrinkles between her eyebrows due to her furrowed brows, and her ears were pushed back.

It was like a wolf warning that it would bite at any moment.

But Sylvia answered without even blinking an eye, lying down.

“To die.”

“How… is that possible? Ash… said that, and you’re even carrying Ash’s child!”

“…What do you know about what you’re talking about!”

“I’m sad too, I’m sadder! You’ve lived by Ash’s side your whole life, and Ash only worried about you until the end! How could you ignore Ash’s words and try to die like that!”

“Ash wanted me to follow him.”

“Stop talking nonsense!”

“under…”

Sylvia was considering whether she could call Pia.

First of all, the fact that there was no sword nearby was a problem, but even before that, spirits were beings that were far removed from the laws of physics from the beginning.

If you were to fight properly, he would be an opponent who could be more difficult than the Demon King.

Even now, Sylvia’s body felt extremely heavy.

Sylvia glared at Pia and slowly opened her mouth.

“But why are you here?”

“what?”

“Ash is dead. But why are you, Ash’s guardian spirit, still here?”

Pia said, biting her lip.

“…I don’t know either,”

“under,”

Yes, that’s right.

This girl is a spirit, but she doesn’t know anything about spirits.

So it wasn’t much help to Ash.

If you had helped Ash properly, Ash might not have died!

A murderous intent began to flash through Sylvia’s empty eyes.

Pia could read those eyes too.

Although the color was different, its spirit was no different from what I had seen before.

“I thought Ash had changed you. But no… You’re still the same, still the crazy b*tch you were before.”

“You, a guardian spirit who has lost your master, what do you know about me? You are nothing more than a swindler who failed to protect Ash. You have no right to interfere with me.”

Sylvia sat up again.

As Pia gestured, the heavy air forced Sylvia’s upper body down, forcing her back onto the bed.

Pia growled, her eyes glaring straight ahead.

“… I am Ash’s guardian spirit.”

“So, your role is already…!”

“I am the one who grants Ash what he wishes for.”

“…”

“Ash wanted you and the child to live. So he’s going to hold you by force.”

“Ash is dead… Does it have to be this way?”

“Even if you die as you please, you can never take that child with you.”

“under,”

Sylvia was bothered by everything.

It hasn’t been long since Ash left, so I had to hurry and follow him so that we could walk hand in hand on the road to the afterlife together, but I didn’t know that I would be hindered like this.

At least, I’ll get after him quickly while Ash’s spirit is still around…

“… for a moment.”

“…”

At that moment, something occurred to Sylvia.

What had been just a tiny fragment of an idea soon began to take on flesh and form.

“what…”

“Shut up for a second. Don’t even think about it. You’re going crazy.”

… is unlikely.

It was a ridiculous plan, unlikely to be realized, and there was no way to get adequate help.

But it came to mind anyway.

Sylvia considered the possibility of meeting Ash again without dying.

“… Pia.”

“What were you thinking? What kind of expression is that?”

“You are Ash’s guardian spirit.”

“… okay.”

“Then, if there was a way to meet Ash again, you wouldn’t object, right?”

“I told you, that’s nothing more than suicide!”

“Not that one.”

“what…?”

“If there is a way, I will follow it. Right?”

I’m sorry, Ash.

I know, I’m not a crazy b*tch.

This is something you shouldn’t do.

Ash would never be happy.

I also know very well that if I do this, I will become isolated in this world again.

Even though I had already committed such a great sin in wanting to keep Ash by my side, Ash forgave me.

I also know very well that this is an insult to Ash’s forgiveness.

But, Ash.

I don’t need this world.

Without Ash, this world would not have been saved.

I need ash.

There’s no way I could love the same thing as another person.

I will only love Ash.

A life free from curses, a life mixed with other people

I don’t need any of that.

Even the opposite is true, with our children.

therefore.

It’s okay to get angry, it’s okay to curse… it’s even okay to hit someone.

Please forgive me one more time.

“Pia, listen to me.”

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There was something ominous in Sylvia’s words as she explained while holding me close.

Something, I could clearly sense that she had crossed a line.

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Of course, it is impossible to bring the dead back to life without crossing the line.

I asked with a trembling voice.

“…What did you do?”

“You said you weren’t angry.”

Sylvia said, hugging me.

Suddenly, her arms that grabbed me felt as tight as thick ropes.

“I’m not angry… I just… want to know what Sylvia did.”

“…why?”

Sylvia slowly released her arms from around me and pulled away from me.

Her face, perfectly reflected in my eyes that had adapted to the light, showed a creepy smile.

The eyes weren’t smiling at all, but the mouth was smiling so wide that it was impossible to smile any longer.

“…Why? What are you so curious about?”

“… If something goes wrong, I have to fix it. Okay, it’s okay. No matter what mistake Sylvia made, no matter what wrong she did, I’ll be with you…”

“There’s no need for that.”

“…”

Sylvia cut me off harshly.

What does it mean?

Does that mean I did nothing wrong?

Is there ever a case where it is not wrong to revive a person at will?

“Sylvia… I’m already dead… is that right?”

“…”

Sylvia didn’t answer.

Now my head is slowly starting to spin.

Something is seriously wrong.

I don’t know what Sylvia did, but she definitely crossed the line.

That too, a lot.

“This isn’t right… This needs to be fixed.”

“You don’t have to do it.”

“Why? Because you are the person I love?”

“No, because I can’t fix it.”

“… what?”

Sylvia said, holding my hand tightly.

For some reason, her hands didn’t feel as warm as before.

“Ash. I had a really hard time.”

“…”

“Really… a lot has happened…”

“…”

“But I did my best… Ash was wrong, I couldn’t live without him. As soon as he died, I tried to die with him. I couldn’t do anything without Ash, I didn’t want to live in a world without him, I didn’t want to have a child to replace him. The thought of meeting a man to replace Ash is too disgusting. I can’t live without Ash, I can’t live without him. I need Ash. I missed him. I missed him so much.”

Sylvia spoke in a strange, unsteady voice, like a broken gramophone.

I was so overwhelmed by the ominous aura emanating from her that I couldn’t say anything.

No, it’s a physical reason.

My mouth wouldn’t open.

“Don’t deny it. Listen. Tell me what I did to see Ash again.”

Sylvia continued her explanation.

“I convinced Pia, she was easily convinced. She wouldn’t let me kill the child, but she said she would cooperate in seeing Ash again.”

“…”

“With Pia’s power, we moved to the Demon King’s castle. Do you remember that demon boy? I asked him for cooperation.”

If that demon boy is the son of the former demon lord?

“I asked him to take out the body using magic, but he refused. He didn’t know how to be grateful.”

corpse.

At that moment, I vaguely realized what she had done.

No, actually I could see it clearly.

I was just desperately hoping that my guess was wrong.

“After continuing to refuse, he suddenly started saying something strange. He said he would allow it if you sided with the Demons.”

oh my god.

no.

“Hey, why are you looking at me like that? Are you afraid that I might have fallen for that offer? Don’t worry. I’m a proper human being.”

Sylvia continued with a smile.

“I was so arrogant that I tried to bargain with Ash, so I broke all of his horns. Then he listened to me.”

Her laugh is so creepy.

Looking closely at her eyes, which were not smiling at all despite her brightly smiling mouth, I saw that they were filled with even more ferocious and terrifying emotions than the days when her eyes had turned red due to the old curse.

It was a darker, more murky blue than any black I had ever seen in my life.

“But I can’t use magic, right? That’s why I went to ask Maria. But she said it couldn’t be done. Instead, she got angry. How could I use the magic that was applied to me on my younger sister?”

Sister Maria would have done the same.

I became a puppet with this magic, so I wouldn’t want to make my younger brother into the same thing.

“That’s why I burned half of the forest. So she listened. There was a condition that Ash and I would never appear in front of her again, but Maria was my friend, so I agreed to that condition.”

oh my god.

I couldn’t believe what was coming out of Sylvia’s mouth.

“Well… I can’t say that I’m friends with Maria anymore… but it’s okay. As long as I have Ash, I’ll be fine.”

Sylvia hugged me again.

This time, it was a gentle hug, with some control over the force, just like before.

At the same time, I felt my lips finally opening.

“Sylvia…”

“Don’t be mad… please… just don’t say anything and hug me… okay?”

“…”

I wrapped my arms around Sylvia’s back with trembling hands.

It’s my fault.

Should have expected it.

I have experienced so many changes in just one year, but Sylvia has been living alone in the forest for at least four years.

The strange obsessions and personality traits she developed during those long hours in the forest wouldn’t just disappear just because the curse was gone.

I was complacent.

It was my mistake.

That’s why I couldn’t hit Sylvia.

Sylvia rested her chin on my shoulder and opened her mouth in a soft voice.

It was a soft, yet ominous voice that still bounced irregularly.

“I guess this wasn’t something I should have done. As soon as I casted the spell on Ash, all of my divine powers were drained from my body. Divine punishment… something like that? It’s just unbelievable…”

“… lost your divine power?”

“Yeah, but I don’t care.”

“…”

“It’s just that a goddess who is useless has taken away the useless divine power. It doesn’t matter if that divine power doesn’t even save Ash, who is dying anyway. No, it’s better if it doesn’t exist.”

The warrior Sylvia lightly insulted the goddess in a very nonchalant tone.

She herself is the one who broke the rules to save humanity and slew the Demon King with the Holy Sword.

I felt dizzy at this unbelievable reality.

“for a moment…”

I know what magic she used to save me.

As far as I know, the magic was to trap a person’s soul inside a corpse and turn it into a puppet.

Sister Maria and many of Sylvia’s companions were also resurrected from the dead by that magic.

The price for using magic is one life.

life.

“…Sylvia.”

“huh?”

I asked with a trembling voice.

I knew full well that the goddess, disappointed in Sylvia, would no longer look this way, but I still prayed earnestly.

I hope this terrible fantasy of mine is just an imagination.

“… Where is our child…?”

“…”

Sylvia’s belly was as flat as before she became pregnant.

“no way…”

“…”

“No…? Where… are you?”

“… I am”

“Sylvia!”

“I don’t need anything but Ash.”

I pushed Sylvia away.

Looking around, I was fortunate to find that this was the Goldfield Estate’s mansion.

Since it was my house, I knew the way home very well, so I quickly went down the stairs and ran toward the front door.

I hear footsteps behind me.

I hurriedly grabbed the front door handle.

“This is…”

No matter how much I pulled on the doorknob, the door just rattled and wouldn’t open.

It was as if something large was blocking the door from opening.

My hair is flying in strange directions.

I realized that it was the wind that was blocking the door.

“… Pia?”

“I’m sorry, Ash.”

A familiar spirit’s voice was heard from behind me.

There stood Pia, avoiding my gaze.

“… Pia, open this door.”

“I am here to give Ash what he wants.”

“Pia! Quickly…”

My guardian spirit who would grant any request I made.

A cute spirit girl who could never refuse the absurd wish to be taken home or the reckless request to approach the Demon King.

But now she wouldn’t even listen to a simple request like opening a door.

“I’m sorry, but… I missed Ash so much too…”

“Pia… close this door right now…”

My mouth is shut.

“Ash. Come here.”

My body turned backwards on its own.

I see Sylvia looking down at me from the top of the stairs.

Sylvia smiled seductively, tapping the stair railing with her fingertips.

This time, it was a beautiful smile that included both the mouth and the eyes.

A smile that is certain of a perfect victory.

“It’s been so long.”

Sylvia snapped her fingers.

A thread of magical power was emanating from her fingertips.

And the end of that thread was connected to my body.

My body started climbing the stairs against my will.

Sylvia looked down at me as I slowly came up the stairs and began to lower the shoulders of the flowing dress she was wearing.

I lowered the dress with my hands down to below her ample breasts, and from then on it fell to the floor without any resistance.

Sylvia stood naked, stretching her legs out in front of her and taking off her dress.

Before I knew it, I had reached her.

Sylvia said, kissing my lips lightly.

“Do you miss your child that much?”

“…ugh,”

“Let’s go make it now.”

ah,

I see

I can’t resist.

It can’t be trained.

The reason we were able to kill the Demon King was because he had not yet completed his resurrection.

But Sylvia had already finished everything.

She walked back into the bedroom, taking my hand with a leisurely, elegant gait.

Step by step,

Every time I walked down the hallway to my bedroom, I felt like a chain was being put on my ankles.

If her one gesture could take away your freedom, then that feeling might be pretty accurate, since every step you take makes your escape more difficult.

“Now… we will never be separated again.”

As the bedroom door closed, Sylvia hugged me tightly and said:

At the same time, my stiff body was freed.

Sylvia lifted her head while still holding me and stared intently at my face.

Her face is puffing out her cheeks and acting cute as if she wants something.

I gently placed my hand on her shoulder and kissed her softly on the lips.

“Umm… Ash.”

“huh…”

“Do you love me?”

“…I love you. That’s for sure.”

“Then there is no problem?”

“…”

“Is there a problem?”

“… not a lot.”

Sylvia laughed out loud.

She smiles brightly and says, “I knew Ash would say that,” and it’s so scary.

Sylvia said with a coquettish voice and a big smile on her face.

“Then forgive me.”

“Sylvia…”

“If you plan on forgiving me, kiss me again right now.”

“…”

“immediately.”

I slowly lowered my head and kissed her lips.

Even if I don’t kiss her, she’ll force me to do it.

Sylvia’s hands gripped my back tightly, her lips moved violently as if she was being teased, and her tongue roughly poked into the middle.

I obediently accepted her sticky tongue.

Even though I committed a terrible act, I still love Sylvia,

And it was also because I knew I could never escape anyway.

Sylvia slowly lay down on the bed while holding me in her arms.

I nodded and climbed on top of her.

Sylvia whispered with an ecstatic look on her face.

“Ash… I love you…”

“I love you too, Sylvia.”

okay.

Just like I thought before.

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I can’t run away from the woman who saved me.

forever.

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