I Was Possessed By An Unknown Manga - Chapter 401



401 – [IF] Because I Can’t Forget

A month has passed since then.

We met again to celebrate her New Year, but Maria acted as if nothing had happened.

To be honest, I had mixed feelings.

Although she half-heartedly agreed to pretend nothing had happened, she didn’t really mean anything.

I tried several times to break her feelings for Maria, but I still liked her deep down.

I probably won’t be able to give up my feelings easily as long as this awkward relationship continues.

“Why are you doing that?”

“No, nothing.”

I shook my head and denied Maria’s question, said I would come back to get some fresh air, and left the store.

“…”

I thought idly as I looked at the street at night where people were busy coming and going.

Of course, it doesn’t mean that I’m not satisfied with my current relationship.

However, when I looked at Maria’s smile her her right next to me, I hated myself for becoming more and more greedy.

“Woman, boy. What are you doing alone?”

At that time, a familiar voice was heard from behind.

“Himiko?”

When I stepped aside with a surprised expression, Himiko grinned and said, “Yes, Himiko,” And took out a cigarette from her pocket.

“Can I smoke a cigarette?”

“Yes. As much as you want.”

As I said that, I moved a little further to the side.

Then, after saying thank you and lighting the fire with a lighter, Himiko stood next to me and asked.

“Are you worried about something?”

“Yes?”

“Well, today he didn’t even eat, and his expression was dark, so it was really obvious.”

“Is that so?”

“What on earth are you worried about? Just tell this sister.”

Himiko said that and tapped my waist.

Although I was grateful for Himiko’s consideration, I said with a bitter smile.

“Thank you for your concern, but I don’t think it’s a concern worth sharing with others.”

“… Really?”

Himiko muttered that and glanced at me, then exhaled smoke from her cigarette.

“Well, when you’re that age, you probably have worries that you can’t tell others about. I used to be like that too.”

Himiko said that and looked into the distance like me.

“You know, my older sister was pretty successful back in the day, right? She got into gang fights with kids from other girls’ high schools, rode motorcycles, and literally went through a rough and tumble time, but after becoming an adult, Do you know what it is?”

“… No.”

“When I thought about the worries I felt when I was in high school, I realized that they were nothing. Especially trivial things like friendship and love.”

Himiko said that and took a deep breath on her cigarette.

“I don’t know what you’re worried about right now, but when you think about it as an adult, it might feel like it’s nothing. So don’t look like you’re about to die.”

People around you worry about you.

“…”

After hearing Himiko’s words, I felt like my depressed heart was healed a little.

It’s definitely as she said.

When you think about what you’re worrying about now, you may feel like it’s nothing.

In the first place, most first loves never come true.

“Thank you.”

When I said that with sincerity, Himiko turned her head with an embarrassed expression.

“What?”

She then extinguished the cigarette in the portable ashtray she took out of her arms, cleared her throat, and said.

“Once we get all the air, let’s go in.”

“Yes.”

After she nodded, I went back into the store with Himiko.

***

When we entered the store at the same time, Mr. Utsumi, who was chewing hard with his mouth full of okonomiyaki, tilted his head and asked.

“Why are you two coming in together?”

Then Himiko shrugged her shoulders slyly and said.

“You chatted with me while I smoked. Right?”

“Oh, yes.”

When I suddenly agreed, Mr. Utsumi said, “Really?” And moved on as if it was no big deal.

When we sat down again, Maria, who was sitting across from me, asked me while looking through her menu.

“Yuseong, from what I saw earlier, it looked like you weren’t eating much. Is there anything you want to eat? I’m planning to order it with you when I order beer.”

“Yes? Uh… Then I’ll ask for Yokohama Deluxe.”

“Yeah, you mean Yokohama Deluxe?”

Immediately after, when the waiter came to take the order, Maria placed the order in an elegant voice.

As I was looking at Maria’s profile while taking a sip of water, Himiko suddenly spoke up.

“Now that I think about it, is there any news about guys?”

“What?”

When Mr. Utsumi looked at him like he was saying something stupid, Mr. Himiko shrugged her shoulders and said.

“No, that’s right. We’re all old enough, but we didn’t spend Christmas last year with our partners. We spent it by ourselves.”

Then Mr. Utsumi sighed and said.

“In the first place, how does someone who broadcasts all day have time to date men? And there are so many female broadcasters like me who go crazy when they get a man.”

“Yes, an old maid for the next life.”

“What! If I put my mind to it, I can make a boyfriend or two right away!”

“Yes~ Yes~”

“Woo! I really want to go after you!”

When Himiko answered half-heartedly, Utsumi looked really upset and jumped up from her seat.

This wasn’t the first time I’d seen the two of them arguing, so as I smiled bitterly, this time a spark flew at Maria.

“Why are you always talking about me? It’s the same with Mari who doesn’t have a man!”

“You idiot! Marie her husband just died! Is she like you where age = years without a boyfriend!”

… What?

I was surprised to hear information that I couldn’t hear in an instant.

“Uh, so… Mari’s husband passed away?”

“Ah.”

Himiko looked at me with a prickly expression, as if she had realized belatedly that she had made a mistake with her words.

It was the same for Mr. Utsumi, who provided the cause.

Suddenly, the atmosphere of her drinking party became solemn, and Maria, who had remained still, spoke with her bitter smile.

“I’m fine. It’s already been almost five years since her husband died.”

The two people secretly looked at Maria’s feelings and apologized.

“… “I’m sorry.”

“I was bad.”

“Yes. That’s enough. I didn’t say it with any malicious intent.”

Fortunately, Maria accepted the two people’s apology, so she was devastated. Otherwise, the meeting would have ended like this.

I asked, looking at Maria’s eyes

“How did your husband pass away?”

Then Maria purred her lips and said.

“When he was alive, he was a cartoonist. He was a person who liked drawing cartoons more than eating three meals a day. I fell in love with my husband’s passion and married him, but ironically, because of my husband’s passion for cartoons, He did not take care of his health and did not take care of his next work. He died of a heart attack while drawing a manuscript.”

“Ah…”

When I let out a sigh without realizing it, Maria said with her bitter smile.

“Actually, the reason I actively helped Yoosung when he just started playing the game was because of his character his nickname his.”

“What is my character’s nickname?”

“Golden Samurai is my husband’s posthumous work. No matter what, there’s no way I could hate a child who likes a cartoon my husband drew.”

“…”

I couldn’t believe that Maria’s dead husband was my favorite cartoonist, Kishimoto Musashi.

After learning the truth, I felt even more guilty.

As I was deciding what to say, not knowing what to console, Maria clapped her hands and said.

“Now, let’s stop talking about dark things. It’s been a long time since we’ve had a good time, so you shouldn’t ruin it because of me, right?”

Then everyone nodded with a lukewarm expression.

This is because I could sense that Maria did not want to continue talking about this anymore.

At that time, the door opened and the waiter who brought the menu that Maria had ordered came into the room, and thanks to that, the conversation we were having was completely interrupted.

***

After the meeting, I thought about it on the way home on the subway.

‘When I think about it, I didn’t know anything about Maria.’

Meeting less than five times at most.

However, I secretly fell in love with Maria because I fell in love with her at first sight.

Of course, this isn’t particularly bad.

Not only can you not know everything from the beginning, but you can learn about the other person gradually.

But I didn’t try to find out anything about Maria.

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I just looked at the ‘ideal Maria’ I knew.

I just knew she was playing the same game as me, I didn’t know where she lived, how many people she had in her family, or what she was doing.

Wow!

Without realizing it, my hands holding my knees become tense.

I felt so sorry for myself that I couldn’t stand it.

Despite Himiko’s encouragement, I didn’t get any better.

“… “What should I do now?”

My feelings for Maria still remain unchanged.

But considering the pain she was carrying, it was not easy to approach her.

Because if I do something wrong, she might get hurt even more because of me.

So, while I was thinking deeply on my way home, I suddenly received a message on Line.

When I checked the message, I found out that the sender was none other than Maria.

[Could we possibly meet separately next week?]