I Was Reincarnated as a Villainous Noble Who Gets Killed Midway Through the Story but It Looks Like I’ll Be Executed as a Traitor if I Try to Do Good Deeds - Chapter 82



82: Muska Stella Ash’s Deceit

I’m a gentle and calm person who heals others. I’ve been acting like that for a long time. As a result, I’ve succeeded in being trusted by many people, even though I’m a dark mage.

That’s why I didn’t doubt that I could become the protagonist. I’m a dark mage who’s trusted by people, and I’m strong because I can use dark attributes. It’s only natural to be proud of myself.

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However, I realized my arrogance was unfounded during the entrance exam at Astral Academy.

The trigger was Rex-kun. He has overwhelming magical power, and yet, he’s admired by many people, including the princess. Moreover, he’s a dark mage like me.

When I found out about his existence, I couldn’t remain calm. It’s because I saw proof that someone was better than me right in front of my eyes. He’s admired by the princess, stronger than anyone, and although he says bad things, he’s loved by those around him.

“Rex-kun is strong. There’s no reason to doubt that. But I can’t lose.”

No matter what happens, no matter what methods I use. When I saw Rex-kun’s magical power, I understood. I can’t win against him with normal methods.

Rex-kun is an enemy I must defeat. He’s someone I need to surpass. It’s not a mistake.

“I’ll work hard from now on to become number one. That path will continue forever.”

I believed that if I worked hard, I could become number one. The gratitude I owe him for shattering that illusion is something I must repay.

I must become stronger than Rex-kun, defeat him, and look down on him from above. If not, I won’t be satisfied. I understand my own heart. I’ll do anything to win against him.

“Still, Rex-kun is a formidable enemy. He doesn’t trust me.”

I’ve always acted to make Rex-kun like me, even more so now. I pretended to be cute, clear-headed, and understanding, but he still doubts me. Does he see through my act?

Until now, I’ve deceived my parents and friends. Does Rex-kun have eyes that can see through people, surpassing even mine? That’s unbearable. I’ll make him pay for it no matter what it takes.

“Why is that? I should be able to make men like me.”

I pretend to be kind, gentle, and accepting, but is that not enough? Honestly, if he says he’s known my act from the beginning, I’ll accept it. I don’t understand why he doubts me.

“Rex-kun seems like a good person, but he’s rumored to be a bit of an idiot.”

Looking at the commoners around him, it’s clear. People like Julia-chan and Stell-chan don’t just respect him as a noble; they genuinely like him. I’ve obtained that kind of affection throughout my life.

Rex-kun takes on an attitude that looks down on people, yet he’s still liked. How much do I have to endure to maintain this persona? He’s trampling on my efforts with ease.

“It’s really frustrating. He’s stronger than me and doesn’t trust me. That’s unbearable.”

If only he had been deceived by me, I might have grown to like him more. Even if he finds out my true nature, I hope he’ll think I’m being deceived by someone else.

But it’s too late now. Rex-kun is stronger than me, and he might have seen through my true nature. I can’t acknowledge someone like that. He’s a good person, and I think he’s precious. He doubts me, but he doesn’t seem to be hostile towards me.

“So, first, I need to make Rex-kun like me. If not, nothing will start.”

I’ll make any effort necessary for that. If I can surpass Rex-kun, that alone will satisfy me. My life exists to surpass him. I was born for that moment. I understand. The moment I surpass Rex-kun will be more wonderful than any happiness I’ve experienced so far.

“I’ll devote myself to Rex-kun, support him, praise him, and lift him up. If I do, he’ll surely trust me.”

I’ll do anything Rex-kun wants. I’ll cooperate with his goals, become his strength, and work together with him as a dark magic user. Forever and ever.

I wonder if I can achieve that while attending this academy. It’s suspicious, but I won’t give up. Until I’m certain I can surpass Rex-kun, I won’t stop.

“When Rex-kun falls in love with me, he’ll be really hurt if I betray him.”

I’ve never betrayed anyone before. That’s why my one-time betrayal will surely pain him. The face he makes when he realizes I’ve abandoned him will be wonderful.

“Then, I can stand above Rex-kun. I can become number one. I’ll work hard!”

At the very least, I can dominate him mentally. That alone will make me happy. Being liked by everyone, being strong, and being gentle – if I can make someone like that submit to me, it’ll be the greatest.

“I’ll make Rex-kun happy. I don’t know what will happen after that, though.”

I’ll give him greater happiness than he’s ever known in his life. I’ll give him peaceful times, enjoyable moments, and heartwarming experiences. I’ll fulfill all his desires. And then, I’ll abandon him.

“I love Rex-kun. I want to make him happier than anyone else. At least, for now.”

Yeah. I want to kiss him. I want to bind our hearts and bodies together. His happiness is my happiness. If I’m with him, any moment will be happy. He’s the only one who matters in my life. So, I’ll carve that into my heart.

“A person who can’t deceive themselves can’t deceive others, after all.”

That’s why I’ll dedicate my life to Rex-kun. I’ll give him all my power, heart, and everything. So, let’s be together forever. I’m waiting for that someday.