I Was Reincarnated as a Villainous Noble Who Gets Killed Midway Through the Story but It Looks Like I’ll Be Executed as a Traitor if I Try to Do Good Deeds - Chapter 85



85: Milra Tina Orange’s Resolve

I’m serving as Rex-sama’s secretary, doing the job he’s given me. To be precise, it’s a role akin to a prime minister in a country. I’ll do everything to fulfill Rex-sama’s wishes. That’s my mission.

In other words, I’m being evaluated. Rex-sama recognizes my value, and that gives me the strength to carry out my duties.

I only learned the joy of being relied upon when I met Rex-sama. Before that, I was always looked down upon.

At the Academy, I was ranked high in the academic institution, but it didn’t mean anything in the end. As a non-magical person, I wasn’t considered for important positions. When I realized that, I hated the world. If I had continued living like that, I might have given up on life.

But that didn’t happen. Rex-sama gave me an important job, and right after we met, he entrusted me with a massive task. I don’t think he knows how much he saved me. He’s a genius in magic, after all.

However, that’s not the point. What matters is that he evaluates my abilities and treats me with care. That’s enough for me. There’s no one else who would evaluate me like that.

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Moreover, having strong magical powers might have made him overlook my weaknesses. But Rex-sama is different. That fact is incredibly significant.

“‘The task Rex-sama has given me is something I must accomplish.’”

Investigating Iku Brown, a teacher at Astra Academy, I discovered that he’s been secretly going underground. If possible, I’d like to uncover his true intentions.

However, Rex-sama seemed to be confirming what he already knew. So, he might have already understood Iku’s goals due to his connections with the Black family.

That means stopping Iku’s actions is Rex-sama’s true desire. Without being told, a good secretary should fulfill their master’s wishes.

“‘But he’s kind. He’s taking care to ensure I’m not in danger.’”

I’m not foolish enough to misunderstand. Rex-sama would be saddened if I got hurt, as if he himself was hurt. That’s not what I want.

It’s fortunate that he sees me as a wonderful person. Since he acknowledges my entire being, I’m happy.

“‘Using magic or not is irrelevant. It’s not a big deal, especially for the Black family.’”

Considering the Black family’s reputation and reality, it’s surprising that Rex-sama turned out the way he did. So, my surprise is immense. To be honest, I’m floating in their family. But that’s not a problem for me.

“‘He trusts me, uses me, and evaluates me. That’s how much he’s saved me.’”

He does it naturally, so I acknowledge myself. Until now, I often thought I was worthless, but he’s changed that.

“‘The existence of someone who evaluates me more than anyone else is something I won’t let go of.’”

There’s no guarantee I’ll meet someone like that again. It’s more likely that Rex-sama is the first and last. So, I’ll cling to my current position. That’s a natural judgment, don’t you think?

“‘Rex-sama won’t ask me to do anything bad. That’s wonderful.’”

He’s a person with a strong sense of justice, unlike what you’d expect from the Black family. He doesn’t think of killing people as a normal solution. Of course, that’s also a weakness. But because of that, he cherishes me. So, I won’t let him lose that kindness.

“‘But I’ll do anything. If sending people to hell would make Rex-sama happy, then so be it.’”

It’s unlikely to happen in reality, but I’m prepared to do so. After all, I was born into a noble family, and to me, people are just numbers. If 1000 people died, it would just be a decrease in numbers. I’m a person who thinks that way. Perhaps that doesn’t suit Rex-sama.

“‘I have no intention of going back to the past. I won’t return to a time when no one recognized me.’”

The more I’m happy now, the more I fear going back to the past. I don’t want to lose the person who trusts me, believes in me, and evaluates me. That thought is growing deeper and deeper.

“‘As long as Rex-sama acknowledges me, I won’t hesitate to get my hands dirty.’”

In other words, if I’m praised for doing so, I’ll happily kill people. It’s simple because it’s about me. I’m sure it’s fortunate for many people that Rex-sama believed in me.

I never thought I was so ugly. I’m a villain who can kill someone and think of it as just a process. But I don’t feel bad about it. If I have that ugliness, I might be able to make up for what’s lacking in Rex-sama.

“Anyway, I don’t want to be hated by the kind Rex-sama, so I won’t do anything too extreme.”

But he can’t doubt his own people. There’s that part of him, so if I do things right, I might be able to gain his trust even while getting my hands dirty. Even if I secretly get rid of someone who’s inconvenient for Rex-sama.

“Even if Rex-sama falls, I’ll follow him. That’s absolute.”

I understand his nature, so I’ll keep being acknowledged. I’ll keep being relied on. Even if he takes the path of evil, it won’t change.

“Because I’m sure he can’t abandon someone close to him.”

I’m someone close to him. The necklace he gave me is proof of that. He even went so far as to infuse me with magic so I could use his powers.

And Rex-sama will always think of me as someone close to him. There’s no reason to doubt that.

“In other words, he’ll always evaluate me. That kind of happiness is unique, isn’t it?”

Others will only see my magic. They’ll think I’m a noblewoman who can’t use magic. That’s why I don’t intend to leave Rex-sama’s side.

“My life is already decided. I’ll do my best from now on. Please take care of me, Rex-sama.”

I’ll use all my power to support you, no matter what the future holds.