I Was Reincarnated as a Villainous Noble Who Gets Killed Midway Through the Story but It Looks Like I’ll Be Executed as a Traitor if I Try to Do Good Deeds - Chapter 87



87: The Born Confusion

Since I got to know Selfi, she’s been approaching me proactively. Honestly, it’s hard to understand.

I can’t say I’m taking a normal attitude, and I don’t owe her anything. Yet, she’s getting closer to me for some reason. That part is strange, just like with Musca. I’m accumulating reasons to doubt Musca too. It’s not a good thing.

Fundamentally, I think it’s more important to trust people. It’s just that doubting is tiring. But I can’t be too careful, either.

I wish we could all just live in a peaceful world together. But that’s impossible. Now, I can only do what I can.

“Ah, Rex-kun, how’s your condition today?”

What is Selfi worried about? No, I know she can’t ignore people in trouble. But I’m the one who’s troubled, and there’s no reason for her to focus on me that much.

I feel like I should just believe in her good intentions, but it’s difficult. Unreasonable kindness is a bit scary. I’m not a good person, after all. I’m just a member of the Black family.

“There’s no problem. You don’t need to worry about me.”

“What do you plan to do to my stupid brother?”

Why was Camila staying with me? I heard they weren’t particularly close. No, I felt more at ease when it was just Selfi and me. Honestly, I was losing myself. I was undoubtedly lost. I couldn’t judge what I wanted to do or what was good. And yet, I held the fate of Julia and others in my hands. It was pathetic.

“You’re not going to do anything weird, Camila-san, are you? I’m worried about Rex-kun. It seems like he’s bearing some burden alone.”

“…Yeah. You think so, don’t you? I do too. It doesn’t seem like a trivial matter.”

From Camila’s words, it seemed like I was hiding something. It was a bad tendency. If my true intentions were revealed, no one would benefit. Not in the Muska case, nor the Black House case.

If Rex’s performance was being exposed, I had to correct it somehow. It was crucial for everyone, including Selfi.

“That’s right. I don’t have any weird goals. I’m just worried.”

“And yet, you don’t have to talk just for the sake of it.”

“Well, if you’re not in a hurry, let’s talk slowly. We still don’t know much about each other.”

That was true. Why did I want to hear the troubles of someone I barely knew? Even with good intentions, it was going too far. Or did I look like I was on the verge of death, and that’s why they were concerned? If I ignored someone whose life was in danger, I’d worry about them too. I had that much conscience.

“Or rather, you can talk to me. You don’t have to say it to someone like me.”

“Thanks, sis. But it’s okay. Don’t worry about it too much.”

“You’re really close with your siblings, aren’t you? It’s enviable.”

Did Selfi have siblings or not? It wasn’t depicted in the main story. Well, maybe they didn’t have any or didn’t get along. From this conversation, it seemed that way. But what would happen if I knew that?

If Selfi had a problem in the future, I’d want to solve it. But that wasn’t relevant now.

“Who’s the foolish little brother? He’s supposed to be under my care.”

“I heard rumors? The sword Camila-san uses is a gift from Rex-kun, right?”

“Who’s spreading such rumors? There are people who say unnecessary things.”

“If sis is taking care of it, I’m grateful.”

“The sword’s cutting edge isn’t bad, though. If I think of it as a gift from my brother, I feel better.”

No matter the reason, the fact that Camila treasured the sword I gave her gave me emotional support. I believed Camila thought of me as important. So, I didn’t have to worry about Camila’s words.

That thought could be applied to my actions as well. Even if my words were harsh, if I could convey that I valued the other person, they might trust me. Yeah, I’d been careful about that until now, but maybe I should be more careful.

“It’s tough to get in between siblings, but it’s reassuring that Rex-kun has someone to rely on.”

“I don’t think so. This foolish little brother doesn’t talk to anyone. No one trusts him.”

When I heard those words, I felt like something pierced my chest. In other words, it might be true. I didn’t want to think that. Because someone who didn’t trust anyone was the worst, wasn’t it?

“That’s not true, sis. I trust you.”

“Where? Do you think I’m a child who needs help with everything? That’s why you don’t consult with me.”

Camila’s eyes were cold, and her true intentions strongly came across. If this continued, I might be hated. When I thought that, my spine froze.

To me, Camila was an important older sister. I wanted to get along with her forever. Then, if I wasn’t trusted now, I had to do something to regain that trust. In other words, I had to talk a bit.

“I understand. Then, I’ll talk a little. There’s someone I can’t trust, but that doesn’t mean I’ve done anything bad. I wonder what’s good.”

“That’s certainly difficult. It’s an emotional issue, so understanding is crucial.”

“I’d just keep my distance and be done with it. If we’re going to be enemies, I’d just kill them.”

“But that wouldn’t make it safe. If the academy was harmed, it’d be a huge problem.”

In other words, if Camila, Julia, or other acquaintances got hurt, I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself. I absolutely didn’t want that future. But was that thought exactly what Camila meant by treating me like a child? Then, what should I do?

“You’re kind, Rex-kun. Maybe others, including me and Camila-san, are worried about you.”

“There’s no way that’s true. We’re just worried about losing to that person. So, we’re worried. It’s humiliating.”

“Well, well, Camila-san. Let’s talk slowly from now on. Then, we can reach a conclusion that we both understand.”

“I wonder. Well, it’s fine for now. I don’t think this foolish little brother will change immediately.”

I wanted to protect Camila and the others. But if I was told I didn’t trust them, what had I been doing until now?

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A dark cloud formed in my heart, and I couldn’t shake it off. For me now, that was everything.