The Hero Who Returned From Death Quits - Chapter 192



EP9. ■■

I was confused. I had no idea what he was talking about.

“That means…”

I felt like I had to say something, but I couldn’t figure out what to say, so I couldn’t continue.

Beatrice was looking at me with a red face, but there was no wavering in her eyes.

Instead of changing her words, she came closer to me.

The smell and feel of Beatrice’s body. I felt my reason fading.

Just before I completely lost my senses, I managed to distance myself from her.

“I don’t think this is right.”

Beatrice looked at me as I spoke and brought her face closer to me.

“What is it not?”

What is it? I don’t know either. I was thinking that if things continued like this, I would really lose my mind, so I tried to say something to reject him, but even if I said something like that, there’s no way I could get an answer, right?

After much thought, I finally came up with an answer.

“…I don’t think it’s right to do something like that in such a hurry. It could be the most precious memory in your life, but to do it as if you were being pushed away…”

Beatrice narrowed her eyes when she heard me.

“Well… haven’t you ever thought about doing it now, since it could be the most precious memory of your life?”

“That’s, what.”

“Of course. If not now… I might never have the chance again. I might die. I want to have at least one memory that I can carry with me until I die.”

It was a memory I would carry with me until death. I couldn’t answer her words. That was something I didn’t know.

Death was something I was more familiar with than anything else, and it was not something I could prepare for. It wasn’t even a one-time thing. That’s why I couldn’t know that it was a memory I would carry with me until death.

What would it feel like to be in a situation where you might die for the first time?

I couldn’t say anything to her because I didn’t know how she felt.

“I’m not saying this lightly. I’m not saying this to just anyone. I just thought… if we really lose to the Demon King, if we really have no future, wouldn’t it be okay to have some… last bit of joy at the end?”

As she spoke, Beatrice’s face grew redder and redder. She seemed to be clearly aware of what she was saying. I looked at her.

“…Even so, if I do it because I can’t resist a momentary impulse like this, it’ll be so… awkward.”

When Beatrice heard that, she slowly turned her eyes away and said.

“Is it really a bad thing to give in to impulse?”

“huh?”

“Einzel too… is doing this, isn’t he? Even if it’s impulsive… I think it’s not a bad idea to give in to your impulses once in a while.”

“No, that’s…”

“Or do you hate me?”

“uh?”

I looked at her in surprise when I heard her words. Before I knew it, there were small tears in her eyes.

“If you’re rejecting something because you don’t like it, then just say so. Don’t make excuses.”

“No, I…”

I looked into her eyes. They were blue like winter frost.

“…I think I’ll regret it if I do it now. I think it’d be a shame if I were to have my first experience chased away by death.”

“You think it’s a waste?”

“Yeah. I… I want to live. I can finally live as a human being, but I don’t want to die already. I’ve finally escaped this colorless world. I can finally express my feelings. So… I’m going to live.”

Beatrice stared at me. I continued.

“I want to live… and see what happens next. I want to see the real peace that can be enjoyed after this matter is resolved.”

“…”

“But, when that time comes… I think I’ll regret doing it impulsively, as if I was being pushed.”

I tried to convey my feelings somehow. I wondered if she would be convinced when she heard this. What was certain was that I did my best.

“Well, that is…”

The moment I was about to open my mouth again, Beatrice covered mine with hers.

From noble mtl dot com

After the kiss, which seemed to have lasted quite a while, ended, Beatrice smiled faintly at me.

“You don’t have to say any more.”

“…”

She stroked my face and said.

“I already know what you want to say.”

“…huh.”

She sat up, her silver hair falling into my face.

She raised her body completely and smiled at me as she spoke.

“Certainly, I feel like it’s a bit of a waste. Then, let’s survive this next time and see it through to the end.”

As she said that, her expression seemed slightly relieved.

“If I think about it, doing it like this now… I think it’s a bit fatal.”

“Fatal? What?”

I couldn’t understand what she was saying. Why did she suddenly say lethal?

Beatrice laughed, “Ahaha,” then scratched her cheek and said.

“Well… don’t you already know who it is?”

…was that the sound?

As I stared blankly at her, Beatrice smiled and said,

“Then… Ainzel, wake up now. Everyone is worried because they don’t know that Ainzel is awake.”

“I said I would do it without other people knowing that I was up…”

“Yes, I told you, I almost did something fatal.”

When I frowned, Beatrice laughed.

When I tried to get up from the bed, I felt like my arms and legs were weak. Even though I managed to get up, I couldn’t keep my balance.

“Why are you doing that?”

“Ah… I don’t feel like I have the strength to do it.”

“Then I will support you.”

She put her arm around my shoulder. Only then did I feel a little more secure. Even though I looked quite embarrassed…

“Oh, but this… what should I do?”

She glanced down at me and said.

“…Won’t it subside soon?”

In fact, I myself wasn’t sure. It was because I hadn’t been alive for long and I wasn’t used to it. But from prior knowledge, I knew that if I stayed still, it would subside.

“I guess so?”

After waiting for a while, fortunately the lower part sank. I felt my face turn red with shame and was helped down.

So, I sat down where everyone was gathered.

“You’re awake.”

The first one to speak was Feria. Feria said in a calm voice.

“huh.”

When I answered, Peria lowered her eyes and said.

“…There were no problems?”

“Yeah. I was connected to the Holy Sword, and I heard all sorts of stories about what was wrong with the Holy Sword’s consciousness, and why it was broken. That’s why I lost consciousness.”

“Haaahhh….”

Feria took a deep breath, looked at me and said.

“Thank goodness everything is fine. Yeah. That’s fortunate.”

I spoke to everyone who was looking at me.

“I’ll tell you why the Holy Sword was broken first.”

Grandis looked at me with curiosity. Something felt a little redder around her eyes than usual, but she seemed okay now.

“The Holy Sword was actually created by the Heavenly God, the Demon God, and the Third God… It was a device to protect the balance… So, they said that attacking Grandis was an act that broke the balance.”

As soon as he heard those words, Se-in jumped to his feet.

“what!?”

I looked straight at her. Embarrassment was written on her face. No, not just Sein, but everyone else. Even Grandis, the person involved.

“…The Holy Sword?”

Grandis said with a bewildered expression. It seemed as if he could not believe that the Holy Sword had been destroyed because it had suddenly attacked him.

I then relayed everything the Holy Sword had told me. Then, Peria grabbed her head.

“I don’t understand the sudden surge of information, just wait a minute.”

After saying that, she muttered something to herself for a moment, then gritted her teeth and looked at me.

“…Yes, so literally, it was your greed that drove you to fight Grandis, and that’s why this happened.”

“that…”

Feria looked at me and said.

“There’s no need to say anything more. After all, it’s true that we all drove you to attack Grandis. It all happened because of us…”

“There’s no point in saying that anymore. I’ve already forgiven you. That’s the end of it.”

Feria looked at me. Then she lowered her head again and said.

“I see.”

Feria clenched her fists and looked up at the ceiling, thinking about something.

“Is that the end?”

Finally, her clenched fists released.

“But… will it work?”

It was a voice full of questions.