The Hero Who Returned From Death Quits - Chapter 193



EP9. ■■

I couldn’t answer Peria’s words. The most I could convey to her, and the best feeling I could give her, was forgiveness. But beyond my forgiveness, what could I say if she was suffering?

“…”

I kept my mouth shut and kept quiet. Silence is a pretty good shield, especially when you don’t know what to say, and it keeps you from knowing that you’re in that situation.

Peria looked at me with sapphire eyes. Still silent. Still those eyes. Still-

“I can’t stand to see it.”

It was Grandis’ voice that broke the silence.

Feria looked at Grandis. Grandis was glaring at Feria with red eyes, even blood vessels in them that made them look redder than usual.

“What’s the point of whining about your guilt like that? What do you want me to do with Ainzel over there? Are you trying to make Ainzel uncomfortable because you feel uncomfortable? I don’t know what you want.”

“…”

Feria looked at Grandis.

“Oh my, how shameless. You did something wrong, and then you confessed your guilt to that person and made him uncomfortable… I don’t know whose idea it was.”

“…Let’s leave it at that.”

Sein stepped forward to stop Grandis.

“You may be right. No, you may be right. Even so, there are things you should and should not say.”

“Oh my. Since when did we start caring about such things…”

As Grandis laughed back, Sein pulled out his sword. Then, he slammed the sword into the floor. The floor went through as easily as if it were a soft pudding.

“I don’t understand what you mean by that. Are you suggesting that we have a fight here?”

Grandis looked at Saint and said.

“Those b*tches who try to shift their guilt onto Ainzel are good at talking.”

Sein took a step closer to Grandis. At that moment, Peria opened her mouth.

“…Okay. That’s true, but. It’s true that I made Ainzel uncomfortable… Sorry. I was just thinking about myself too much.”

Feria bowed her head to me and apologized. However, she felt more uncomfortable doing so.

Only then did Grandis’ expression soften. However, she still did not look satisfied.

She glanced around, then started to head off alone. I didn’t know where she was going, but I felt I had to follow her.

“uh…”

“Hold on a second, I’ll be back.”

After saying that, I stood up and followed Grandis. Before I knew it, my legs, which had lost their strength, were regaining their strength.

Grandis was leaning against the railing of the palace terrace, thinking about something. I approached her.

“…you.”

What should I say? Should I get angry? Because they were rude to others? Or should I say thank you? Because they got angry for me? No, no. There must be something else to say.

Seeing me in such distress, Grandis smiled. The blood vessels in her eyes had already subsided.

“Yeah. You’re here?”

The way she spoke seemed as if she had known from the beginning that she would come. She acted as if she knew every single thing that was going on in my head.

From noble mtl dot com

Grandis came up to me, frozen in place, and grabbed my hand.

“…Sorry.”

“…uh?”

I blurted out the words in a moment of panic. Did she say sorry? Grandis? Grandis never said anything like an apology inside me. As I stared blankly at her in amazement at the unexpected event, Grandis snickered.

“”why.””

The question of “Why” burst out from both of us without exception. However, her “Why” was a question of whether there was something strange, and I was curious as to why she would say such a thing.

Grandis ran her hand through her hair. Her hair was so black that it seemed as if the night sky was woven into it. Whenever I saw her in the past, I thought that she had the night sky in her hair.

Grandis smiled bitterly.

“You just started a fight for no reason. I know that. It’s not right. It’s not good to fight so openly in such an urgent and dangerous situation. But… I couldn’t control it.”

She smiled and continued.

“Actually, I have nothing left now. Seriously, really, out of nowhere, that Demon King guy showed up and took away the place I lived in, the people I lived with, everything, everything in an instant… I know that I can’t live like this while I’m still here.”

“…”

“But, you know, but… emotions aren’t something that can be easily resolved. They hate me, and I hate them, but when we keep seeing each other, a lot of things build up.”

She turned her body around and looked at the night sky. I followed her and looked at the sky. The night sky illuminated by the crescent moon was not as bright as usual, but instead, stars were shining brightly.

“I, I now… have nothing left but you.”

“No, that’s…”

She looked at me. I didn’t avoid her eyes. The blood vessels had receded, but the corners of her eyes were still red. Traces of tears.

“I don’t know what you think. Maybe you don’t like me. But, you’re the only one I like right now. I… I’m alone just because you say one word that you don’t like me.”

Grandis swept my face.

“No, even if you like me, what if you disappear? What about me?”

“That can’t be…”

“Don’t tell me it can’t be. I was alone just a moment ago. I was alone in the few hours that you lost consciousness. I… I thought I could live my whole life inside myself. Because I had everything. But in an instant, I saw myself losing it all. I saw… me now.”

Tears began to flow from her eyes again.

“I am,”

silence.

“I don’t want to be alone….”

She fell into my arms. I just held her in my arms without even thinking about what to say.

“Only now, after living for hundreds of years, have I finally realized that feeling. Only now! Right now, without you, I am nothing. What would I do if I had power? What would I do if I knew so much? I am just a big brat who is experiencing loss for the first time!”

As she spoke, she buried her face in my chest for a while, then raised her head and looked at me.

“That’s why… That’s why I got angry. You’re the only thing that’s precious to me, but I couldn’t stand all the things that made it hard for you, all the things that made it hard for you.”

The strength of her hand that was holding onto my clothes gradually grew stronger, reaching a climax, and then suddenly released.

“Just… just drop everything and go somewhere?”

She asked me.

“…”

“Just, give up everything… and go somewhere… just the two of us… like that…”

“You know that won’t work.”

Grandis looked up at me.

“Yeah… yeah… I know. I know. You, you’re the one who can’t do that…”

I grabbed her wrist.

“I want to live.”

“…”

“I took the Holy Sword and ran away my whole life. I ran away from pain, I ran away from my mission, I ran away from my duty. Then, suddenly, I realized. I couldn’t run away.”

“…”

“So, I killed the Demon King. I couldn’t escape anyway. But, even though I knew I couldn’t escape, after I killed the Demon King, I wanted to run away again.”

“…”

“The circumstances surrounding me. The pressures. The expectations. All of it, it was so painful and painful that I tried to run away and attack you. … Even though I knew how precious this time we were in contact with each other was.”

Grandis’ face turned red.

“So, this time I don’t want to run away.”

I hugged her.

“I’ll say it again. I want to live.”

“If you want to live…”

Her mumbling voice soon stopped, as she already knew what I wanted to say.

“I want to live not just alone, but with everyone.”

I looked at the stars in the night sky while hugging her.

Joy in one star. Memories in one star. The names of precious things were given to the stars.

“With family, with colleagues, with other people.”

Grandis hugged me tightly.

“With you… together. Without running away, by fighting. By protecting all of those things with my own hands, I will survive.”

Grandis lowered her arms around me and said.

“Okay… I got it. So… don’t die.”

“Don’t die.”

“If you die, I will die too.”

I bit my lip. Another life was added to my life.

I said with a smile, even though I felt as if I was being crushed by its weight.

“Yeah. I’ll buy it. Definitely.”