The Hero Who Returned From Death Quits - Chapter 227



EP10. The Falling Twilight

Lena and I are different in every way. That’s how I felt.

Race, bloodline, circumstances, gender, even the size of our dreams – she and I are different in countless ways.

But, at this moment, maybe I can confidently say that I feel the same way.

She and I were holding each other, catching our breath.

“Fuck… I’m so full, I’m full…”

“Do I really have to swear?”

“What can I do if it happens unconsciously? … I’ll fix it.”

Lena answered me with a red face. Then, suddenly, she continued.

“But if you think about it, it’s true that I chewed it out, but wouldn’t it be more correct to call it a curse?”

I looked at Lena with a look of disbelief, and Lena laughed brightly.

For a while, we continued to hug each other and let time pass by.

“…How was it?”

A single word suddenly appeared and shattered the sense of satisfaction I was feeling as I took a deep breath. I looked at Lena.

“…Do I have to say that?”

Lena looked at me with a bewitching look and said.

“Yeah. Women, regardless of race, need confirmation. Confirmation that this man wants me. They can’t be satisfied without that kind of assurance.”

… That’s what it is, so what else can I say?

I spoke to her quietly.

“…huh.”

I didn’t really know what else to say, so I said that.

Then, looking at me like that, Lena asked in a small voice.

“Who was the best?”

“what?”

I couldn’t hide my embarrassment at those words. Suddenly? I couldn’t think of anything else. Despite my embarrassment, she continued to ask me questions.

“You must have done it with other kids besides me, right?”

I looked at Lena with surprised eyes and said.

“…How do you know that?”

Lena chuckled and said.

“Just a feeling. I had a feeling it would happen. And, from your body… I could smell a woman’s scent.”

“Oh, I…”

What does it mean to smell like a woman? I felt dizzy at the words that I couldn’t even begin to guess.

“So who was the best? Okay? Tell me.”

I stared at Lena’s face.

How on earth do you say that? How can you know what it feels like when you haven’t even tried it much?

“…I just thought everything was good, so I didn’t really care about that kind of thing…”

“Hey, this isn’t fun.”

I listened to Lena’s reaction and squeezed her butt.

“Eww!?”

It seems that she was still sensitive because the aftertaste hadn’t completely subsided. I looked at her and said, regardless.

“Stop teasing me.”

Lena blushed and moaned, but looked at me with a playful look in her eyes.

“Why, I just thought it would be a little more fun.”

“fun?”

I pressed myself a little tighter against her body.

“Rather than comparing yourself to other people, wouldn’t it be better to just focus on spending time together like this?”

“…Hmm. That’s.”

“We’re spending time alone together, so I don’t think it would be helpful to bring up other people’s stories. Today… I’m spending time with you.”

Lena nodded at me, her lips pursed.

So we continued to hug each other endlessly until we fell asleep.

…

I opened my eyes, glanced at Lena who was still sleeping, and then got dressed.

I was starting to get used to being in this situation. I thought to myself, smiled, and went out of the room.

And as I was walking down the palace hallway, I ran into Feria.

“…”

What should I say about this situation?

This situation where he is seen having s*x with another woman in front of the woman he first had s*x with.

Even though this place is hers.

I smiled awkwardly. Feria saw me like that, came over to me, and grabbed my ear.

“What, you did it once and now you’re a total hooligan.”

I hesitated for a moment about what to say in response to that, but contrary to my expectations, Peria did not scold me harshly.

“…It’s okay. I understand everything. That’s why I told you to let it go in the first place.”

“what?”

I asked back because I didn’t understand. Feria looked at me like that, shrugged her shoulders, and asked.

“why?”

“…No, isn’t something strange? Why would you insist on doing that…?”

Feria said with a bright smile.

“Yeah, maybe it might feel strange.”

I stared at Feria.

“I think when you and I first experienced each other… I could have bound you to me. If I had brought up the responsibility of a possible child, I might have been able to tie you to me. You have a strong sense of responsibility, and you are surprisingly pure when it comes to love.”

“-But, you didn’t do that. Why?”

Feria still had the smile on her lips.

“It may be a new thing to say, but I like you. No… I love you. Yes. That is a fact that will not change.”

“But why?”

I am still clumsy in love. That is why I asked her, relying only on what I had heard, that love involves obsession and bondage. However, Peria smiled as if it were natural.

“…because I love you.”

She came up to me and kissed me.

What I feel is the texture of my lips and tongue. And the scent of mint, a faint body odor.

Even in situations where the brain seems to be shutting down, the sensory organs keep working as if they are going to burn the brain.

After a very short, but breathtakingly long kiss, she pulled away. Then she caressed my face with her thin, white hands.

“I love you. That’s why… I know that if you are tied down to me, you will be unhappy. I can’t do that. It’s not that I don’t want to keep you by my side, but at least I don’t want to see you, you who are so madly lovable, unhappy.”

She hugged me tightly and brought her face to mine. With that, she continued speaking.

“It’s not just you. It’s not just you, but your colleagues are also precious… Everyone who has overcome adversity together is precious. I hope that all of our stories end with ‘they lived happily ever after.’ For that… Even if you don’t like it, my colleagues… And even if you really don’t like it, Grandis, at least everyone, I hope you can face your heart.”

“…Is that so.”

“Who’s left now?”

Feria threw the burdensome subject aside. I looked away from her and said.

“You, Sein, and Lena… we already did it.”

Feria chuckled and patted my back.

“Okay. Be nice to the rest of you too.”

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I just stared at her back without saying a word until she disappeared down the hallway.

…

I drank alone. … I knew that everyone had feelings for me. I couldn’t possibly know the weight of those feelings because they weren’t mine, but even so, I couldn’t figure out where the line was.

Just thinking about the nights I’ve had these past few days makes my lower body ache. I looked at my lower body for a moment with a resentful look at it acting so obliviously.

When I thought about it, I wondered if this was the reason why my head was hurting so much. I couldn’t figure out whether the pleasure I’d experienced over the past few days had somehow ruined my head or not.

… Is it really okay to continue like this? How should I look at Beatrice’s face? Should I really just end up with Beatrice? … It’s not that I don’t like it, but if I keep doing this, won’t I really get stabbed? Well, even if I get stabbed, it won’t mean much.

And, above all, the thing that worried me the most was Grandis.

Grandis was an outlier to me and my colleagues in many ways. They still have a negative view of her. And to me, the weight she held in my life was overwhelmingly greater than anyone else’s.

And now, it seemed like I was getting more and more lost in how to deal with her. No, before that, I didn’t even know how Grandis would react.

In that way, I sighed, feeling like I was gradually being buried in my worries.

However, I knew from countless experiences that nothing would happen if I just sat there and sighed anyway. So – in the end, I had to face it with my own body.

I decided to stop worrying and just lay down on the bed.

The next day, I got on a carriage early in the morning to meet Beatrice. I had to go to the Holy Land.

And, as soon as I met Beatrice, the only thing that came to my mind was that I was in a great hurry.

“Do you like me?”

“yes?”

… I think it’s a bit too much.