The Hero Who Returned From Death Quits - Chapter 231



EP10. The Falling Twilight

Beatrice and I returned to the capital after such a short time. As we approached the Holy Land, Beatrice felt increasingly guilty, nervous, and anxious.

“…What if something big happened because I wasn’t there? No, I guess it would have been a problem because I went out on my own. What should I do…?”

I turned my head to look at her, watching the scenery swaying through the carriage window. Then I answered her.

“Wasn’t it a journey to find freedom?”

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Beatrice stared at me.

“You said it. You wanted to break free from the things that usually bind you. But if you look so anxious, what’s the point? Just eat comfortably and don’t worry about that. What’s the point of just being free in body? If your mind is bound, then our trip will be meaningless.”

After hearing those words, Beatrice finally sighed and nodded.

“…Yes, that’s right. That was the purpose of the trip, but I just didn’t remember it.”

I made her lean her head against me. She said with a big smile on her face.

“thank you.”

After a while, the carriage arrived at the holy place.

As soon as we arrived at the Holy Land, numerous priests came out and approached Beatrice. Beatrice awkwardly scratched her cheek as she watched them.

“Saint! Where have you been?”

Beatrice spoke in a small voice.

“Oh, I already wrote down where I was going on a note.”

They naturally ignored her words and shouted at Beatrice, as if they couldn’t hear her.

“Even though she is a saint, she doesn’t even speak to us…”

Beatrice, who had been listening to such words, frowned and spoke in a cold voice.

“…Where am I going that I need your permission to go?”

Upon hearing that, the priests all shut their mouths and stared at Beatrice. No matter how much they could nag Beatrice, the extent of their permission was entirely within her control. It was nearly impossible for a single priest to dare say anything she didn’t want to say to the saint who had completely unified the religious order.

“No, that’s it.”

“I don’t need permission. This time, I went to another country after clearly informing them and confirming that there were no important schedules. Why do I need your permission?”

The priests were so overwhelmed by her power that they could not say anything. In the end, they had no choice but to submit to her.

“…Understood, Your Majesty. Then, we will refrain from bothering you with trivial matters in the future. Then, we will take our leave now.”

Watching the priests leave, Beatrice and I headed to her room. Then, she sat down on her seat, sighed, exhaled heavily, looked at me, and spoke in a crawling voice.

“…I wonder if that was a good thing I did just now?”

Beatrice even had tears in her eyes. I looked at her like that, patted her head, and said,

“What were you thinking when you said that?”

“…I was so suffocated, the moment I got here, the moment I saw you, all you said was that, so suffocating that I couldn’t breathe… That’s why I said that.”

“After saying that, did you feel relieved?”

“I felt a little guilty, but… yes, I think I felt relieved.”

“That’s fine.”

“I wonder… that’s it… .”

“Yes. As I said before, the reason we went on the trip was because you wanted to be free. So, if you feel better, if you are happy, then the trip we went on was worth it. So, that’s all that matters.”

Beatrice stared at me with her eyes that resembled the color of the sky.

“…Yes, I think that’s right. Thank you.”

I smiled and got up from my seat. This was the end of my trip with her.

As I thought that, Beatrice grabbed the hem of my clothes.

“…yet.”

“huh?”

I looked at her. She spoke to me with a red face.

“Don’t go yet….”

“…”

I did not reject her touch, but sat down next to her again and untied her clothes one by one.

…

Beatrice looked at the face of the man lying next to her. He was handsome. … Not this.

Every time she looked at his face, she felt emotions she had never felt before.

It was a life where I felt like I was being suffocated by the stuffiness. I got used to it and lived my life like a fool, believing that I had overcome it.

And I saw his records. Seeing myself finally feeling free next to him, I realized my own situation and it hurt.

In that pain, she longed. She longed for that smile of hers, the smile she had when she was with him in the past.

When she looked around, consumed by such longing and thirst, she saw that he had already been kicked out by her own hands a long time ago.

Why did she treat Ainzel so harshly?

Because she liked him. Because she trusted him. Because it was hard to believe that there was something else behind the way he looked. But when she found out that the secret he had been hiding, the way he had been looking, was different from what she had thought, and even when she began to long for it, she despaired.

I thought I would never get that light again. I thought I would never see him again. I thought I would spend my whole life imprisoned, never free again.

Then, the feeling she had when she met him again, that meeting again, came to her so happily that she could not help but describe it as a miracle.

‘…a miracle man.’

Everything is a miracle. That the warrior she fought with was him, that the person she fell in love with was him, that the person who saved her was him, everything is a lovely miracle without missing a single thing.

He brought her freedom as she thought, and she broke the rusty chains, enjoying happiness and joy.

Every moment of her journey with him shone like a jewel, and was precious. It wasn’t just because her body was free. It was just that—he, himself, and nothing else, was free to her.

She thought she would never be bound again. And she would, because she had known what it felt like once. She had known that it was okay for her to be free.

…and now it was time to let him go.

A child… would be nice to have. A child with someone she loves would be proof in itself that she is free. And, more than anything, it would make her realize that she is connected to him even when he is not by her side.

She caressed his sleeping face for the last time. This is the last time she will monopolize him. Today is the end of monopolizing him by deliberately getting angry when he wasn’t angry.

He would leave her side again someday. But, knowing that she would see him again, she would be okay with him not being by her side anymore.

Honestly, I don’t like the idea of ​​him being linked to a demon that I don’t like very much… but I couldn’t help it. After all, I can’t deny the influence she has had on the man I love.

She carefully got out of bed so as not to wake him, then got dressed.

And then, I quietly headed to the very top of the holy land. There, I could see Grandis.

“…Grandis.”

Grandis, who seemed to have become a little more accustomed to humans, called her name.

“Beatrice.”

Beatrice continued to look at Grandis. And, in the midst of the chaos in her mind, she managed to find the words to say.

“…Are you okay?”

Grandis looked at Beatrice quietly. Her eyes seemed to ask what she was talking about. Beatrice looked at Grandis and spoke in a trembling voice.

“You must be interested in him too, right? But is it okay for us to have him first?”

Grandis shrugged, her red eyes shining.

“…Well, I don’t really like it.”

Beatrice continued to look at Grandis like that.

For a moment, Grandis smiled and said.

“But, well, I can tolerate it. His first time isn’t really important. What’s important is his last time.”

Grandis, who had said so, disappeared a moment later.

Beatrice continued to stare at the disappeared figure.

“His end was important… That’s why Grandis stayed still.”

After a while, she turned her head away and looked somewhere else.