The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 219



220 – More me than myself

My heart was beating quickly and violently. The pain she felt in her hand grew louder and seemed to reach her head. When I glared at him silently, Roel tightened his chin and lowered his gaze for a moment before looking at me again.

“You promised me. “I will no longer be associated with the church.”

I burst out laughing without realizing it. He asked with an expression as if he was serious.

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“Luna is in a dangerous situation… “Is that kind of promise important?”

“That… ?”

Roel shook his head with a sigh. She furrowed her brows and glared at me with angry eyes, as if she was no longer trying to hide her emotions.

It’s the first time I see your eyes. It was close to the look in Roel’s eyes that he would only see when looking at his enemies. I bit my lip as I felt fear rising in my chest.

Roel said as if warning.

“Don’t ever treat my promise like that again.”

As my emotions surged, words came out freely without thinking.

“I had no intention of keeping my promise from the beginning.”

At my words, Roel just smiled forlornly and shook his head. After being silent for a moment, Roel put his hand on my shoulder as usual.

“I am your brother, no matter what you think. “That doesn’t change.”

Then he asked in his usual friendly voice.

“Do you know why I’m not mad at you?”

I bit my lip to avoid answering. I felt like words that I shouldn’t say would come out of my mouth due to the urge to hurt Roel’s feelings. The selfish instinct to put Roel down in order to relieve his inferiority complex is now tiresome.

As to how he accepted my silence, Roel spoke with an unfamiliar, harsh expression.

“Because if I hit you, you might die. That’s why I’m not angry at you. “Because you are weak.”

Roel has power. She has the ability to make the other person feel the sincerity contained in her words. So I could tell. Roel truly thinks of me that way.

My younger brother is so weak that it’s impossible for him to even get angry.

“Roel.”

The lips I had bitten hard burst open and a sound came out of my mouth. Roel’s sincerity brought out the ugly feelings at the bottom of his emotions.

“Die.”

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My head turned. I feel like my thoughts are stopped for a moment by the burning pain I feel in my cheek. It’s a bit hard to believe that Roel hit me, to the point where I wonder if I’m still dreaming.

I guess I had forgotten that the person who killed Ross was Roel because of the strong and trustworthy appearance he had shown me all this time. It was true that if Roel got angry, I would die. Because Roel killed his younger brother with his own hands for making a stupid choice.

Roel sighed heavily and weakly lowered the hand that had slapped my cheek. When she turned her head to look at Roel, she met her gaze with a rather empty face.

“If I had sent you away, you would have definitely died. You are far from good enough to deal with Confsion. “Both skills and attitude.”

While saying that, Roel took a step closer to me.

“I told you. “Doing something half-hearted is worse than doing nothing.”

Roel grabbed my collar. The emotions contained in the blue eyes looking at me were difficult for me to understand.

“For the sake of the person I love, I should have developed the skills to beat anyone. If that doesn’t work, you should have thought of protecting it, even if it meant begging me!!!”

Somehow, I felt like Roel had let out the scream he had been holding back for so long. It sounded like the screams of someone who had never been able to atone in regret, so I couldn’t help but stare blankly at Roel.

This is not a feeling that Roel, the Munchkin protagonist who has never failed, can feel. Rather, it is a feeling that is familiar to losers like me.

But Roel’s voice contained sincerity. It was clearly a voice full of regret and pain.

Roel said with a cold face.

“I will do anything to protect you. If you don’t keep your promise… I will force you to leave the academy, even if it means forcing you. Even if I break your limbs, make you an asshole, and lock you in the basement, I will make sure you never die. “Because I’m your older brother.”

The sincerity in Roel’s voice made my body tremble for a moment. Roel could really make me like that if he wanted to. Roel saw my hands shaking against my will and hugged me with a sigh. Although it was obviously warm, I felt the cold seeping into my bones.

“Ross, please, please. Just enjoy life at the academy normally. If anything is dangerous, leave it to me and the professors and you just… Just stay alive next to me. “Then I will protect Luna and all your precious members.”

Footsteps were heard from afar. The sound of footsteps approaching quickly was not from just one person. Roel patted my back as if comforting a crying child and pulled away.

Roel regained his usual smile and spoke in a kind voice.

“If you have any difficulties, come to me anytime. “I will do my best to help you.”

I stared blankly at Roel’s back as he walked past me into the hallway on the other side of the sound of footsteps. Feeling helpless, she collapsed helplessly on the floor.

I feel like my efforts have been denied, and I feel like I have been betrayed by Roel, whom I trusted. I couldn’t possibly stand up. As I was looking at the hallway where Roel disappeared, the sound of footsteps came closer.

“Roh, Ross… !”

I turned my head and looked at Aria’s voice calling me. She must have taken the time to find Rakar and bring him back, as her men were breathing heavily and looking at me with concern.

“Chief, it’s okay… ?”

Kane asked, looking at my blood-covered hands. Without saying a word, Rakar put his arm around my shoulder and lifted me up.

Pursing her lips, Aria looked around for a moment and knocked on the ward door. A moment later, she opened the door and Professor Joy appeared, asking with a displeased look on her face.

“Do you have any business in the ward?”

“hello! A member of the same club in the ward and a friend of mine! “I came to see Luna because she said she was in the room. Is that okay?”

At Aria’s question, Professor Joy narrowed his eyes and turned to me, who was being supported by Rakar.

“As I said before, visits are not allowed today.”

“B-but… ! “Can I at least see your face for a moment?”

Aria spoke earnestly, but Professor Joy shook her head with an expression of no understanding.

“no. “The patient is absolutely stable.”

While saying that, Professor Joy tried to close the door, but Aria quickly put her foot out and blocked the door.

Before Professor Joey could get angry, Aria pointed at me and said,

“Then it’s okay for the patient to go into the ward, right?”

“what?”

As Professor Joy spoke incredulously, Aria came up to me and raised her hand to show me.

“The student was hurt!”

Professor Joy, seeing the condition of my hand, sighed and shook his head.

“Then only patients come into the ward. The rest goes back. Next time you try a trick like this, you will be formally punished. okay?”

The members nodded their heads enthusiastically at Professor Joy’s threats. When Professor Joy opened the door slightly to come in, Aria quickly whispered to me.

“Luna will be waiting. “She went well.”

Those words brought back my dazed mind. Without even thinking about saying thank you, she walked into the ward. There was only one bed in use. The curtains are closed so you can’t see inside, but Luna is definitely there.

As I couldn’t take my eyes off him, Professor Joy dragged me to a chair and sat me down with a sigh. Professor Joy, who was looking at my injured hand, saw a ring with the same design as Luna and sighed and took the ring off.

“I have to take the ring off to heal it.”

Professor Joy placed the blood-stained ring on an iron tray. There was already a ring there with the same design as mine, with blood on it.

“When I’m done, I’ll let you see your face for a moment. “But I’ll be asleep because I took sleeping pills.”

After saying that, I looked at Professor Joy and said thank you. Professor Joy sighed as he looked at his torn and broken hands and said, “Men often make fists…” .” He muttered and applied the disinfectant thoroughly, then took the potion out of the drawer and applied it carefully.

“It’s not good to use too many potions. The body’s natural regenerative capacity decreases. Then your immunity will drop and you will get sick easily.”

After finishing cleaning up, Professor Joy went with me to the bed where Luna was.

“It’s not too long, it’s not too short, it’s just 5 minutes.”

“… thank you.”

As Professor Joy left the room, I opened the curtain with a trembling heart. Even though I wasn’t emotional or in pain, I burst into tears. Thanks to Professor Joy’s treatment, there were no visible wounds. But just seeing Luna lying in her hospital room made me unable to hold back my emotions.

I looked down at Luna, who was exhaling softly. This happened because of me. Because I’m half-baked, because I’m not good enough, and because I’m greedy. I looked at Luna and pondered my regrets endlessly. She swallowed her cries and let out hot breath.

I brought my face closer to Luna. She reached out her hand and gently stroked Luna’s cheek. I could feel her delicate skin against my fingertips. Her heart explodes as the warmth flows through her fingertips.

I whispered to Luna as if I was making a promise.

“More than the blood you shed… I’m going to make you bleed. “I will kill everyone involved with the church, every single one of them.”

In response to my words, a message appeared before my eyes.

[ Indomitable Courage is activated. ]

[Geas is activated due to the oath. ]

-Kill all people associated with the cult.

My emotions subsided, my mind became calm. What I had to do became clear. The name of a noble who lived in the capital and was in partnership with the religious order came to mind.

I will kill them all. Even maids and children who know nothing will be torn to shreds so that not a single piece of flesh is left behind.

With that in mind, I turned around and tried to leave the ward. But he couldn’t move. Even with my indomitable courage, I couldn’t shake off the small hand that grabbed my hand. In my shimmering vision, I saw big eyes filled with me. Luna spoke with her eyes struggling to open and in a voice so small that you couldn’t hear it unless you listened closely.

“Ross… “You can’t do that.”

Suddenly I wanted to ask. Has she never once regretted falling in love with me? Have you ever been disappointed by my ugly appearance? But Luna’s actions were faster than my questions.

As if she completely trusted me, Luna held my hand tightly and smiled with all her might.

“Because Ross is going to be a hero.”

I couldn’t bear those words. She leaned over, buried her forehead in Luna’s hand, and sobbed.

I just can’t stand the fact that there is someone by my side who believes in me more than I do.

I cried out a sound that was like a moan that couldn’t be put into words.