The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 269



270 – The hero’s younger brother can’t help but be depressed. however,

Roel is loved by everyone. She has such good looks that a woman who didn’t know about excitement for the opposite s*x would feel her heart pounding just by making eye contact with her, and she even has the ability to make a good first impression on anyone.

He is also a perfect person who anyone would want to have as a friend or lover, as he has outstanding innate talent, is sincere enough to get along with everyone, and has a flawless personality.

“Roel is so outstanding that he has never experienced failure. “Even when he was young, he was the best in town.”

Ellie nodded as if agreeing with what I said.

“That’s right, honestly, there’s no one I really think of as a competitor to Roel.”

“That’s why probability came into play.”

“what… ?”

Seeing Ellie tilting her head, I asked with a wry smile.

“I once had a conversation with you in the world I was in. The day I first met Roel. You thought Roel was ‘wearing a mask like me.’”

“… that’s right. It was such a great first impression that I still remember it. “Roel was close to perfecting the calculated smile that I practiced so hard when I was young because I wanted to look good to others.”

I put down the chalk. My heart is beating as it pleases. This is the moment when Roel’s secret, which had been buried in the past because it could not be solved, is revealed. But why do I feel worse than I thought?

I said with a sigh.

“The day I was unfairly scolded for pushing Rose off the mountain and hurting her. You remember, right? “You must have met Roel.”

Ellie bit her lip and nodded slightly, as if she felt a strange sense of anxiety.

“… huh. Remember clearly. While shedding tears and being sad… Because Roel had a very sad smile. You may have heard it, but that day is actually the day I fell in love with Roel.”

I took a deep breath. Did Ellie really not notice this sense of discomfort?

“Have you ever wondered why Roel cried?”

“that… Maybe it’s because you’re being scolded too harshly… ?”

Ellie’s expression was dark as she said that. She seems to know that even she is not persuasive.

“If it was so sad for me to get scolded, would Roel have any reason to smile?”

“that… .”

Seeing Ellie speechless as if realizing the contradiction, I wiped my face in a strange feeling, neither anger nor joy.

“The reason Roel smiled was because I cried.”

Ellie frowned slightly at my confident voice.

“… That’s too far-fetched. You know very well that Roel is not that type of person. He is a person who truly sympathizes with other people’s sadness and sheds tears more than anyone else. Do you really think Roel would have smiled darkly in joy at your crying?”

I couldn’t help but burst into laughter at Ellie’s serious question. I know better than anyone that Roel is not that type of person. But what I said was clearly true.

“Ellie, your perspective is wrong.”

“what… ?”

I hit the word [probability] written on the blackboard with my fist.

“You should have thought about it from the perspective of Roel, who benefits from probability, not from me, the victim.”

Ellie looked at me silently.

“The reason Roel smiled was not because I cried. It’s not like I got scolded too much. Roel was just a feeling of sadness, like my tears of injustice… “He was just experiencing it for the first time.”

“uh… ?”

Ellie froze. He literally froze, making eye contact with me as if he wasn’t even breathing. I somehow felt something welling up in my heart at the truth I realized. Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t. Perhaps the old inferiority complex that has settled within me is making itself known.

Tears well up in Ellie’s obsidian eyes as she looks at me. I could see that she had realized her truth. I burst into tears at the sympathetic gaze, and my inferiority complex raised my voice.

“Perfect Roel has never tripped over something, fallen stupidly, or made a mistake and got scolded. “Because that was the responsibility of my stupid, immature younger brother with an inferiority complex.”

“… .”

“I have never experienced the embarrassment of being scolded in front of everyone or the embarrassment of being rejected by my friends when they invite me to play with them. “Thanks to my appearance, I am well liked by everyone, and I have never gotten into a fight for no reason, and I have never been scolded by a villager.”

Roel is a perfect person who is loved by everyone. He, like me, is a person who has never experienced reasonless contempt or denial from anyone.

“Roel is someone who can truly sympathize with other people’s sadness and cry with them. Everyone who knows Roel thinks so. Because it’s true. “Roel doesn’t act, he always means it.”

Ellie looked at me. Straight at me with tear-filled eyes. It’s the look in my eyes that makes me realize who I am and what I mean to Roel. Suddenly, I had the urge to turn around and run away somewhere. Because I was ashamed and embarrassed of my very existence. But it didn’t happen. It would be correct to say that I gave up because I had no strength in my legs. The truth was that shocking to me.

“That’s why it’s a contradiction. How can Roel, who has never experienced her own grief, sympathize with someone else’s grief and shed tears? “She hasn’t crawled on the floor, so how does she know that’s where she is?”

I had to stop talking to suppress my rising emotions. If I hadn’t done that, I wouldn’t have stopped expressing my anger with all my might until the blackboard and my fist broke.

“That’s why probability came into play. For Roel, who never fails. For Roel, who is easily loved by everyone. “For the perfect Roel who does not know the tragedy of inferior people who have no choice but to crawl on the floor in misery!!!”

I screamed. No, it is correct to say that I cried. It’s not anger. It was just that my inferiority complex reached its peak. Because I once again realized deep in my bones that my existence is expendable.

I smiled. No, since I had been shedding tears for some time, it might be more accurate to say that the corner of my mouth was twisted. I continued to explain in an unwavering voice to Ellie, who was sitting on the floor and crying at me, probably because her legs were weak.

“The younger brother, who fails every time, experiences rock bottom, and has an inferiority complex that catches up with his older brother no matter what he does, experiences depressed and self-loathing emotions every day that Roel can never feel. So probability came into play. I, I… .”

I can’t breathe. My instinct for Ellie refuses to speak out. She refuses to tell Ellie how ashamed she is. But when I saw Ellie’s big eyes looking up at me with her tears, I had no choice but to say it with a bitter smile.

What answer did Probability give to Roel in the novel, who understands emotions he has never experienced? It’s simple.

“Because I am the exact opposite of the perfect Roel. Roel’s contradictions will be resolved if Roel can feel everything about Ross, a depressed, failure-filled man who has struggled with an inferiority complex his whole life. The sadness, loneliness, and pain that Ross experiences every day… “Because Roel, who has never experienced it, will be able to help you realize it.”

After I finished explaining, I cried. Not only did she shed tears, but she sat down, leaning against the blackboard, buried her face in her knees, and cried endlessly like a child.

He revealed everything in front of the girl he once loved the most. What does my existence mean to this world? Why was a person named Ross born?

Ross was a pain doll created to convey the sadness he felt. It is a role that involves being pricked by needles, being kicked by feet, and rolling in mud. No one reaches out to pet a dirty doll.

Probability speaks for itself. Now, wouldn’t the explanation of the character Ross, who lived his entire life in loneliness and inferiority, be more plausible? As a writer, I can only nod my head without making any excuses.

The consumable character with an inferiority complex was not simply a disposable character. All his life, he was an expendable sacrifice for the main character named Roel.

I flinched. Her whole body was curled up in a small shape, as if she were a fetus. Even so, I wanted to hide my shameful existence. I wanted to become a small dot and disappear like this.

But a warm warmth enveloped me. Ellie said desperately to me, burying her face in my knees and putting her face close to my head, which did not raise my head.

“no. You weren’t born just for that. “I know it better than anyone else in the world.”

I wanted to deny Ellie’s words. She wanted to ask back, “Don’t you know the truth?” So I raised her head, met Ellie’s gaze, and found her speechless.

Ellie didn’t cry anymore. Her eyes were swollen and her face was a mess full of tear stains, but she met my gaze and suppressed all the emotions she felt, smiling sweetly only to comfort me.

Ellie said.

“Ross, you are my only childhood friend and, as I realized later, the most precious person in my life. “No one, not even for a moment, could replace you.”

The tears flowed so freely that even Ellie’s smile was blurred. Ellie stroked her trembling shoulders.

“Your life begins now. It must have been rough and so hard that you would want to give up, but the ending of your story will definitely be full of happiness. In the future, you will be able to feel several times more joy than the sadness you have felt so far. I can promise you that you will definitely meet better friends and loved ones than me. Because you are a good kid. “I’m sure a wonderful reward awaits you.”

Eli’s words brought the members of the Messiah team to mind. Lakar, a trustworthy friend, Kane, who has started a new life, and Aria, the mischievous… And even Luna, whom I love. I missed everyone.

The strength in my shoulders was relieved. Her body, which had been constantly shrinking, relaxed, and I felt the warmth of Ellie wrapping around me even warmer. I closed my eyes. Because of this, the tears that had gathered around my eyes fell to the floor without a sound.

And when I opened my eyes again, I was finally able to look straight at Ellie, who was crying silently.

“… “There is someone waiting for me to return.”

Ellie smiled infinitely sweetly at my words.

“Yes, I will help you get back home.”

Ellie stood up and held out her hand to me. I was able to stand up only after holding his hands.