The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 282



283 – Fucking Possession

“Do you know that your possession is different from normal possession?”

At Jin Xian’s question, I was about to reflexively shake my head, but then stopped. I tried not to use my brain because I was comfortable with the stupid idea that Jin Xian would explain everything. I was lost in thought for a moment, reprimanding him for his own stupidity. And I found the answer.

“… “You have an inferiority complex towards Roel.”

“Yes, in most cases, an ordinary guy who was reading novels or playing games at home suddenly becomes possessed by a main character or extra who has tremendous talent despite being an asshole or limited. But what about Ross?”

I continued Jin Xian’s words.

“It was an expendable character with an inferiority complex that was hastily inserted into the story.”

“That’s right, originally possession was a device for the author to conveniently set things up. A probable device for a guy with nothing to live a sweet harem life with just one trait: a dogfighter. There are some restrictions sometimes, but they don’t interfere with the progress of the story. It’s a bit of a handicap for Munchkin. But you have the ‘inferiority complex toward Roel’, which is the penalty Ross had. “I’ve been caught off guard more than once because of that.”

Jin Xian asked me with a strange smile.

“What are our original personalities like?”

“… “A shady guy who likes to spy on other people’s diaries.”

Jin Xian chuckled at my answer.

“I’ve watched others get hurt for fun. While disparaging other people’s novels, he even wrote ‘The Hero’s Harem Can Only Win’ out of half-baked jealousy that he could write something superior. “He was a man who enjoyed deceiving others for no reason by cleverly mixing truth and lies.”

“Are you suddenly asking me to criticize myself? “Then, when I was a reader, I would post comments pretending to be compliments and subtly write down things that bothered me and add what I had been asked to do throughout the year.”

Jin Xian snorted at my sarcasm.

“It means that your original personality and your personality when possessed by Ross are different. “What do you think is the reason?”

I suddenly felt like I was losing consciousness at Jin Xian’s question. My personality has changed? That can’t be possible. In situations where I was not affected by Ross’s inferiority complex, I always lived as a ‘true eye’.

“Different?… I am the same… If it weren’t for Ross’ inferiority complex… .”

For some reason, the words don’t flow properly. Seeing me like that, Jin Xian noticed something on her face and shrugged her shoulders.

“Well, with the restrictions in place, it seems impossible to even reason in that direction. The answer is simple. This is because unnecessary personality was extracted from Jin Xian’s data and then he was possessed by Ross. The empty emotions were not overwritten, so Ross’ original personality remained. “That’s proof that we are copies of Jin Xian’s data.”

I felt a faint pain near my heart. Although I wanted to doubt and deny Jin Xian’s words, I felt that there was a high possibility that what he said was true. Suddenly, it felt like the floor beneath my feet was giving out.

My legs became weak and I sat down on the sofa, muttering in confusion.

“I am just data… ?”

Jin Xian tilted his head, looked at my face, and scratched his chin with an expression of incomprehension.

“Is that really that shocking?”

I was rather appalled by Jin Xian’s reaction. Isn’t it normal to fall into despair when you realize that your existence is just infinitely shallow data?

“Dang, isn’t it obvious? Everyone thinks they are special. No matter how ugly a person is, they want to put themselves in the category of ordinary. But if I were just a copy of the data… I, I have no meaning in living… just… .”

Jin Xian approached me and sat down next to me as I was unable to finish my sentence.

“Do the friends and relationships in the world you were in have no meaning to living for you?”

“… what?”

“They are also characters in a novel whose world was created as a copy of the original world. According to what you say, are they beings without meaning to live? Are you just seeing them as type moving before your eyes?”

Hearing Jin Xian’s words, I raised my hand and covered my face. I’ve never thought of it that way. The tears Luna shed for me and the friendship of her friends were all infinitely true to me. I have lived and fought so far for the stories of those who live today, not just stories in novels.

“… No, absolutely not. “I think everyone is real.”

“And yet it is contradictory to consider oneself a fake copy.”

I couldn’t say anything due to Jin Xian’s sharp words. Jin Xian smiled brightly and put his hand on my shoulder and said.

“By the will of God, each and every one of us is real. Jin Xianja, Ross. That’s us. “The two are just one.”

I feel like something strange is stabbing me sharply in my chest. If I were Jin Xian and Ross… What is the Ross inside me that I saw?

I spoke in a deep voice.

“With Nelson’s help, I met the Ross in me. The Ross in me told me to be a hero. “I will enjoy watching me like that”

“Puhaha!!!”

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Jin Xian suddenly burst into laughter, clutching his stomach and starting to stamp his feet like crazy. She wasn’t acting, but was genuinely laughing. Jin Xian laughed for a long time, even shedding tears, and she spoke to me, who was frowning, in a voice whose laughter did not disappear.

“You idiot-innocent b*stard. How can a man who was born from lies be deceived by such petty lies! Do you know what my speaking habits are? The guy who got hit is an asshole! This idiot. “Fuckk!!!”

“That’s a lie… ?”

Should I keep my mouth shut and speak with a happy expression? Seeing Jin Xian looking at me with that expression on his face, I let out a deep sigh, trying to hold back my anger.

“… Please give me a detailed explanation. “Mr. Jin Xian.”

“Kkeke, you idiot. Flattery is good. Well, it’s not fun to tell you the answer right away, so I’ll give you a hint. “Remember what Roel said in the first world you went to, on the verge of destruction.”

At Jin Xian’s hint, I briefly remembered what Roel said when he tried to kill me. And I was soon able to find the correct answer.

“… Roel told me I was a mixed soul.”

“Yes, we, Ross and Jin Xian, have become one mixed soul. This is because Ross’s basic soul frame, which maintains the body, was left behind, and the rest was filled with Jinsian! This is also the reason why Roel’s setting of ‘defeating my younger brother unconditionally’ continues for us who are possessed!”

“Then the Ross I saw… .”

Jin Xian jumped up from the sofa and spread his hands wide in an exaggerated gesture. And she shouted in a loud voice like an actress in a musical.

“That was just a safety device created by the saint! “I’m just trying to gaslight you into becoming a hero, out of fear that you might encounter the essence that’s locked up inside you!”

I feel like my heart is falling to the floor. She said that a saint she had never met could do something like that to me… She couldn’t believe it. If he had me possessed by Ross and cleverly manipulated me into taking the path of a hero, wouldn’t that be the final act of darkness?

“for a moment… What is the essence locked up inside me? “What does that mean?”

In response to my question, Jin Xian tilted his head.

“huh? Still don’t understand? What did the other you who saved your life think? Nine-tailed fox, horo? Hold it up to the sky! Even if you shout, “kk.”

“Shut up and explain properly!”

Jin Xian chuckled at my annoyance and said,

“Why do you think every Ross has an inferiority complex when it comes to Roel? “Even if it doesn’t exist from the beginning or if there is an inferiority complex, it is usually resolved within three months.”

“That’s impossible. “An inferiority complex is Ross’s default setting, right?”

What should Jin Xian do in response to my question? He shrugged his shoulders with an expression like this.

“What do you know? If we were possessed, it would be natural for Ross’ probability to change. I told you, it’s natural to be possessed and suck. Just as every Ross has unique abilities, their innate abilities start out differently. From the beginning, I had no sense of inferiority. Most of us even realized on the first day of possession that we wouldn’t be able to defeat Roel by force, so we transferred to the Ministry of Magic before enrolling. Since my lovely childhood friend Ellie is also at the Ministry of Magic, it’s like killing two birds with one stone. There are very few Ross who remain in the combat division. “It’s less than Ross, who transferred to the Department of Magic and Pension.”

I couldn’t believe Jin Xian’s words that he didn’t have an inferiority complex toward Roel from the beginning. How difficult was it for me because of that inferiority complex? If I am really the last Ross, there is no need to leave behind a penalty of inferiority that did not exist for the previous Ross.

When I asked about that, Jin Xian smiled joyfully.

“Fuck, you idiot. How many times do you say it? You’re the worst Ross among us. “Don’t you understand what that means?”

“… “Didn’t you say that I am the slowest growing person?”

When I spoke proudly, Jin Xian nodded.

“That’s also true. The reason I call you the worst Ross is because you got off to the worst start out of all of us. He has no natural magic power, no physical ability, and even his relationship with his parents, who were somewhat sympathetic and supportive, is at its worst, and he even has an inferiority complex towards Roel! “This is the absolute worst Ross.”

I bit my lip at Jin Xian’s voice that seemed to be teasing me.

“Fuck! I am the last Los, I am the hope! So shouldn’t I be able to get off to the best start? I crawled on the bottom for a long time! He said he wanted to stab me in the neck with a spear. “Why on earth did you make me like that?”

The beginning of Bing was really difficult. My parents’ disdain, the disappointed looks of people who looked at me with expectations of my older brother, even the moment I was knocked out by Rakar and passed out… It was the continuation of a truly depressing day. It was the first time since entering the academy that I desperately hoped that morning would never come.

There were many times when I got out of bed and thought about just dropping out. At that time, I really wanted to give up everything. It was a very depressing time just because I was possessed by a novel I had written for no reason.

But despite my justified anger, Jin Xian shrugged his shoulders with a calm expression. She then answered in a voice as if she took it for granted.

“That’s it, because of causality. “For the final game, God read all the fates of Ross so far and decided to attack multiple enemies.”