The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 285



286 – Hero

“So, why did you come to see me?”

I answered Jin Xian’s question honestly.

“Actually, Ross of Longing sent me here without any explanation. I realized that you are the essence of my writer after coming here… But now I have a purpose. “I want to bring back the essence of a writer.”

At my honest answer, Jin Xian forced a smile and spoke in a somewhat stern voice.

“Recovering one’s essence is close to a kind of instinct. At first, I wanted to become one with you again. But as time passed, watching you in other worlds, my thoughts changed.”

“I changed my mind… ?”

Jin Xian twitched one corner of his mouth. It felt like an attitude coming from superiority, as if he knew crucial information that I did not know.

“Yes, if I become one with you again, I will definitely gain greater execution, determination, recklessness, boldness, cruelty, and imagination than I have ever had before. However, it is also true that there is a reason why the saint excluded me from you. In a word, high risk, high return.”

Jin Xian, who was sitting on the floor, got up. Wiping away the rainwater running down his face with his hand, Jin Xian continued his words.

“I am now a double-edged sword for you. It’s a sword that can save everyone, but it’s sharp enough to cut off one’s own head without one knowing it. Do you still want to become one with me?”

I did not answer Jin Xian’s serious question right away. Perhaps it is a choice that can change everything in the future. Of course, we have no choice but to be cautious. I thought about recovering the essence of the writer and imagining not.

However, the latter did not improve in the current situation. He traveled to other worlds and discovered secrets about Roel, errors in the novel’s setting, and things about the God of Chaos Religion, but that was only through experience, and he could not use that information to read the flow of probability.

Nothing has been resolved regarding Roel, who is suspected of having returned to the Chaos God who was born out of probability. However, I had an instinctive intuition that if I could regain the essence of the writer I had lost, it would be much easier to read the flow of probability than it is now.

The choice itself was surprisingly easy. Because I have to choose between moving forward by stepping on a platform that may collapse at any moment, or standing still on the platform. To save everyone, you must take risks.

Even if a lot of things change in Loss so far by acquiring the essence of a writer, my absolute goal to serve everyone who is precious does not change.

Jin Xian looked at my expression and smiled slightly.

“Your eyes look determined.”

“Keep your worries brief and your resolutions firm. This is a lesson I have learned from my life as Ross so far. “I will get you back.”

What really convinced me of my choice was actually the last thing Ross of Longing said to me. The saying, ‘It’s time to break free from the constraints of being a saint and find the essence of a writer.’ The Ross of Longing was something I already knew at a time when I did not even know that the Ross within me was the essence of the writer.

If so, it would mean that Ross of Longing already knew that recovering the essence of a writer would be of great help to me, the last Ross. Part of him was that he no longer wanted to be dragged around by a saint he had never met.

However, Jin Xian did not look very happy after hearing my answer. Instead, she seemed to be deeply troubled as she slightly furrowed her brows.

“I have already decided. “I plan to accept the risk of getting you back.”

But Jin Xian slowly shook his head.

“It is not a risk to simply think about it that way. As you said earlier, I am the essence of madness and chaos that Jin Xian possessed. Even the mad Jamie was consumed by my Creator’s madness. Writer Jin Xian’s creator’s madness is added to Ross’s original madness and chaos. “No one knows what the consequences will be.”

Jin Xian sighed heavily and looked somewhat uncomfortable.

“I found out things here that you didn’t know. What Roel is planning, why he went to another world, and even the answers to the questions God asked me. Perhaps even words that should not be remembered that would end the journey so far in an instant. You desperately pushed them into the realm of oblivion, but the moment you become one with me, your unconscious mind may suddenly recall them one day. That’s what I’m most wary of. “Sometimes what you don’t know is the right answer.”

I shouted urgently at Jin Xian’s words. Now Jin Xian has everything I want. Of course, I had no choice but to become urgent.

“That’s exactly what I want! “I want all the answers to get to the ending I want!”

“Even if that choice leads to your destruction?”

“what… ?”

“Even if, at the moment of the end, I turn you into a being who can’t even be a dummy that can’t be found anywhere in the novel?”

Jin Xian’s eyes looking at me were as sharp as a blade. But I already decided from the moment I fell in love with Luna. That I can give up everything for what I love. Even if it is my destruction, my resolve does not change.

It might be a stupid choice. There is no good excuse to say that it was a selfish choice that only cared about one’s own feelings. But there was nothing I wouldn’t do for Luna, who helped me learn something she couldn’t experience even though the two souls, Ross and Jin Xian, were mixed.

“… “I’ve already made up my mind.”

Jin Xian smiled bitterly and nodded.

“If you have decided, there is no need to talk about my shortcomings any more. Now, on the contrary, let me make you realize how good your choice to be with me was.”

When Jin Xian moved his hand, the endless rain stopped, and the infinitely dark world turned upside down. Light comes into the dark world. It is somewhere in the universe full of twinkling stars. At that sight, a strange sense of déjà vu tickled her head.

Jin Xian, who had come close to me, asked.

“Do you remember what I said about the cult leader’s trap?”

“I remember.”

“Okay, that’s why I’m trying to show you the correct answer now that I couldn’t tell you before I became one with you. Even if you don’t understand it right now, just seeing it will be of great help to you in the future. Now, this is the cult leader’s trap that we were unable to see until the end because of the saint’s safety measures.”

As he said that, Jin Xian tapped my shoulder and pointed forward. As I moved my gaze along it, a throne suddenly appeared in an empty space.

In front of the throne, a man was sitting on the floor with his shoulders drooping. All I could see was his back, but I could tell that his hair was blonde like mine.

“You could have saved everyone!!!”

The emotion of despair contained in the voice penetrated into my ears. I feel like déjà vu. This is definitely the vision I saw when I wore the mask containing the cult leader’s trap hidden by Estelle.

In contrast to the desperate voice, a wise voice was heard.

“What did we lose this time?”

“My everything.”

In the vast universe with no known end, the stars dance and spiral into something. Things swallowed up in the darkness of the universe are endlessly distorted and give off a clear presence.

“Then, take another step. 」

In front of the huge throne, something indescribable threw the mask it was wearing into the abyss of space. Then the passage I made when I went to another world was created in the abyss.

I was shocked as if my heart had been kicked by the fact that I had created a passageway to another world. I quickly turned my gaze to the throne and looked at the passage that had been created, but I could not recognize the face of the person who had taken off the mask. No, the face didn’t exist. Where the face should have been, there was only chaos rippled like a whirlwind.

Obviously, my memory was interrupted before here, but the scene in front of me continued.

The man who was sitting on the floor got up. As I watched the man slowly turning towards the abyss of space where a passage had been created, I noticed his face and forgot to breathe.

I couldn’t believe what I saw with my own eyes, so I muttered without realizing it.

“Roel… ?”

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Although it was distorted, collapsed, and destroyed countless times… I knew that that person was Roel. There was a time when I subconsciously wondered if I might be the one crying out in despair.

But that person was clearly Roel. The atmosphere was completely different from the Roel I knew. The Roel who gave off the most similar atmosphere was the one-armed Roel seen just before destruction.

The being in front of the throne asked Roel, who was staggering and walking into the abyss of space.

“Are you not going to give up until the end? By now, you must have keenly realized that you are trapped in an eternal return from which you will never be able to escape. “Is there still a reason to chase after this dream?”

At those words, Roel stood still. And she looked over her shoulder at the presence of the throne.

“Hundreds of times, I lost everything. Even if my heart was ripped out, the pain would not be enough. I might have to lose thousands more times in the future. I have stumbled many times in regret and despair, but I never stop. I will definitely keep my promise to save everyone… .”

Roel turned his head forward and, even though he was staggering helplessly, walked towards the abyss of space without hesitation with eyes full of indomitable will.

“I will not give in to endless trials, but will fight for all eternity… .”

Roel ended his speech by throwing himself towards the abyss of space.

“Because he is a hero.”