The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 291



292 – If it wasn’t for me

Sometimes emotions are difficult to understand with your head. Like when you feel a sense of emptiness at the moment when you should feel a sense of accomplishment and joy from reaching what you set out to do, or when a relationship with someone goes sour is worse than you expected. It still is. Just seeing Luna makes my heart beat wildly in response to emotions.

I never knew that just looking at someone could make me feel this good until I met Luna. I thought love stories in movies, dramas, and novels were exaggerated. But after experiencing it, I felt like I knew. Love has the power to turn rational people into idiots who are swayed by emotions, and even serious people to become childish.

Of course, that doesn’t mean I’m that kind of person. However, I was able to feel and learn various emotions through Luna. A positive goal was created and the motivation to achieve something was created. It was a love from which I learned so much, and a love from which I would learn so much in the future.

For some reason, I felt happy to see Luna, who seemed to be meeting me after a long time. Next to Luna was a female student I didn’t know. She doesn’t know the name, but it’s a face she saw at the Magic Faculty when she went to visit Luna’s classroom one day.

Judging by the happy atmosphere, it seems that he is close friends with Luna in this world. The sight of her smiling and chatting like a girl with a happy expression on her face made me smile without even realizing it.

I guess I didn’t go home for winter break. In fact, she was Luna, who had been contemplating for a long time whether to stay at the academy until the day of the vacation. I was worried that she would interfere with my training, so I decided to go home and work hard to grow… Luna here seems to have stayed at the academy with her friends rather than her boring home.

Perhaps because she was very close to the friend by her side, the bright smile she often saw when she was with her teammates appeared on Luna’s lips. The two people who were talking seemed to have decided on something, and suddenly they started walking, opened a little distance, and followed quietly behind them.

Sometimes I have had these cheeky thoughts. If it weren’t for me, Luna wouldn’t have had a boring life at the academy, she thought, absurdly. Luna had a lot in common with me, so she thought that if she wasn’t in the Messiah club, she didn’t have any friends in particular.

If it weren’t for Nelson’s suggestion, I wouldn’t have even thought about forming a club, and I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to become close with the members who happened to be in the same group as I do now. She wouldn’t have been able to become lovers with the lovely Luna. We didn’t have much in common to talk about, and I, who was going through a difficult life at the academy, would never have approached Luna.

But even without me and the Messiah club, Luna here made like-minded friends and was able to smile brightly. I think it’s because of her shady personality that I feel fortunate, but also a little disappointed at the same time. Isn’t that a revelation of her desire to become the person Luna desperately needs?

While I was following Luna with that thought in mind, I felt a strange sense of discomfort. Because Luna had discomfort on the left side of her body, her walking form was different from others. Should I say she waddles a bit like a duck if you look at her from behind? Luna also had lovely features in her walk.

So, just by looking at the back, I, as my boyfriend, could clearly tell whether it was Luna or not. But Luna, who was now walking with her friend in front of me, felt somehow unfamiliar. Yes, she was walking with her back straight and her posture straight. Like a girl who has learned the manners of nobility.

The sight of Luna moving her limbs so precisely, as if calculatedly, somehow made me feel like she was a stranger, so I couldn’t help but be very embarrassed. Once I came to my senses, I observed Luna and followed her quietly. I felt somewhat uneasy, but I tried my best to pretend not to notice.

The place Luna and her friend arrived at was the academy’s library. As I followed her into the library, the warm air touched her face and body, which were stiff from the cold. I wondered where the students I couldn’t see at the academy had gone, and it seemed like everyone had gathered in the library. However, since there were few students left at the academy during the vacation, there were several times more people inside the library who appeared to be citizens than students.

Since it was the season of cold winds blowing, it seemed that more people came to the library with the intention of spending time in a warm place. It was free to use, and since there were so many books available, I saw many parents bringing their children to the library. As if you were inside a large department store bookstore, you could see people immersed in reading sitting at tables, on the stairs, and even in front of bookshelves.

Luna and her friend headed to the corner marked [Major Category: Romance.] As I watched Luna smiling and whispering with her friend while looking at her new book, I felt a dazed look as if Luna had been hit on the head with a blunt object as she looked over the contents of her book. I was able to realize the true nature of her discomfort.

Luna here used her left hand very naturally. He raised his thumb to grab the page she had turned and stroked the cover of her book. And her left hand was naturally lowered as she walked around to pick a book and find a place to sit with her friend.

The Luna I know didn’t just have trouble using her hands. Because it was a brain problem, it was difficult to use the left side of my body, and even stretching my arm forward was difficult. So she always had one arm bent inward at her armpit, and her overly tense muscles kept her fists clenched when she wasn’t holding something in her hands.

But Luna in front of me didn’t look like that at all. Her arms were not placed at her armpits, nor were her fists clenched. Her posture, which made it look like her shoulders were slightly hunched over, was not visible. She was as ordinary as anyone else who used her library. She did not feel uncomfortable walking, nor was she afraid that others would notice her disability.

I watched blankly from the opposite table as Luna, who had found an empty seat with her friend, was whispering and quietly laughing. Her bright smile without any dark corners was very natural. It was a smile that seemed to indicate that she had been raised and loved very much.

That smile brought back memories of the first time I met Luna. Luna seemed like a kind of gloomy woman with a similar gloomy vibe to me. However, Luna here is very bright and active, just like any other person. She is not afraid of what others think and her confidence can be seen in her expression.

The reason why Luna became unwell was because she injured her head in a falling horse accident. Luna, who spent most of her time in her room due to her physical discomfort after the accident, said her family was worried that her personality had become more introverted than before.

However, in this world, it seemed as if Luna had never had a falling horse accident. That is not a sign of overcoming an obstacle. He was never injured in the first place. That’s why she didn’t suffer from depression by locking herself in her room, nor did her personality turn into an introvert because she didn’t talk to people. She simply grew up as a girl with a lively personality and was loved by her family.

As I was looking at Luna with goofy eyes, my friend sitting next to me made a mischievous expression as if he felt my gaze, tapped Luna with his elbow, and pointed at me with a nod. She met my gaze and Luna turned her head and laughed quietly with her friend, then gave me a faint smile, tucking her hair behind her ear.

Seeing that, I came to my senses and got up from my seat and left the library as if running away. At first, I followed Luna with the intention of talking to her, but… I just couldn’t do that. I felt like my heart would jump out of my mouth when I opened it. I left the library and was barely able to catch my breath after collapsing on a nearby bench.

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I felt like I finally knew what God had prepared for the final loss. Unlike Ross in another world, for the sake of causality, I was treated coldly by my parents and felt extremely inferior to my older brother… Luna also suffered from a disability due to a falling horse accident when she was young.

So, was it God’s plan for me to meet Luna? Was falling in love with Luna and falling in love with Luna all what God wanted from me?

A falling horse accident completely changed Luna’s life. She changed from a lively, fearless and cheerful girl who could easily get along with others to a depressed and quiet girl. Luna didn’t change into a brighter person after meeting me. She just regained her original bright appearance.

My heart is beating violently for a different reason than before. The image of Luna joking around and laughing with her friend was endlessly repeated in her head.