The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 355



356 – How to wear a mask

After leaving the capital’s portal station, I immediately headed to Modist. It was late, but I thought the visit time wouldn’t matter to Estelle, whose sleeping pattern was disrupted during the winter vacation.

After knocking on the door and entering with Amber’s guidance, Estelle was lying on the sofa looking lazy, as expected. Looking at the snack wrappers on the floor, it appears that he hurriedly put on a mask while eating snacks when he heard a knock on the door.

Even if you are thinking about wearing a mask, you are not planning on getting up. I think he realized I was a visitor and went back to lying down.

“What are you doing, coming here at such a late hour? “He’s an uninvited guest.”

Annoyance was evident in his blunt voice. I walked over to the sofa and sat down next to Estelle, pushing her legs away.

“Get your pig’s butt off! It’s heavy! “It looks like the sofa is tilted to one side!”

I said with a sigh, holding out my hand to Estelle.

“Please tell me how to wear a mask.”

Estelle, who was looking at me as if asking me what kind of bullshit I was talking about, grabbed my hand and struggled to get up.

I don’t know how long I had been lying down, but Estelle, who had been stretching for a while to relax, looked at me waiting for an answer, tilted her head, and then realized belatedly that I had not answered and opened her mouth.

“Oh, if you go? If your mask falls off every time you move, it would be a good idea to adjust the straps or change the knotting method. “Removing all the oil from your face before putting it on is also a way to make the mask last longer.”

“No, I’m not asking for practical tips like that. I want to learn how to wear a real mask. “I heard Raelan would understand if I said this?”

Raelan was kind enough to not explain to me what he meant by learning how to wear a mask. He didn’t explain it anyway, saying why should he have Estelle explain it in detail?

So, I came to Modest without knowing exactly how to wear a real mask or what it meant. But Estelle showed a strange reaction. It is a reaction as if a hidden secret has been discovered.

“Raelan said that… ? He seems like a sneaky guy, but that’s not normal either. “I never thought you would know my secret.”

I scratched my head and asked as he shrugged his shoulders.

“Can you tell me?”

Instead of answering those words, Estelle changed the black cat mask she was wearing.

“What kind of person do you think I am?”

What popped into my head when I heard the question without context was that he was an arrogant mesukaki, but I thought I would definitely get hit if I said it out loud, so I carefully changed my words.

“A playful girl?”

“and?”

As he lifted his chin as if asking me to say more, I said whatever came to mind.

“Master of Modest, heir with black eyes, short stature, lovely appearance, purple eyes, gothic dress, shy without a mask?”

Estelle looked at me blankly. Are you trying to hit me? While I was tense, I heard a low murmur.

“Then who am I really?”

“yes?”

“Is Estelle with the mask real, or is Estelle without the mask real?”

“Yeah… .”

I couldn’t answer and trailed off. When I think about it, I was familiar with the sight of Estelle wearing a mask. This is because I have met a lot more Mesugaki than as a shy person. However, this does not mean that Estelle is not her true self after taking off her mask.

I know that it is correct to answer that the person behind the mask is the real Estelle. But I have met Estelle from another world. And looking at them, I missed the cheeky Mesugaki girl I used to know. Because to me, Estelle wearing a mask was real.

Estelle, who was staring at me unable to answer, suddenly burst into laughter. He shrugged his shoulders and gave a clear answer, as if asking what he was worrying about so seriously.

“They are both me. You idiot! “Why are you worrying so much about the difficult answer?”

I was moved to tears by the voice that seemed to make me feel like I was truly stupid.

“Isn’t that what you look like when you don’t wear a mask?”

“True, but my appearance doesn’t change even when I wear a mask. Because wearing a mask doesn’t mean you’re pretending to be someone else.”

I didn’t understand what he was saying and tilted my head.

“I don’t understand… ?”

Estelle sighed and explained.

“A person’s personality cannot be completely changed just by putting on a mask. “Unless it’s like a masquerade performance.”

Estelle said, tapping the black cat mask with her fingertips.

“What do you think of a mask?”

I once spoke to Ross while wearing a mask.

“… “A mask is something to hide your face.”

A mask is something you wear to not show yourself to others. It is worn to hide expressions and emotions that are inadvertently revealed. But Estelle shook her head as if she was not satisfied with my answer.

“That is correct. “But it’s not enough to give me the right answer I thought it would.”

Estelle said that and suddenly turned her face towards me. At first glance, it looked like a scene from a horror movie, but Estelle’s small body and cute cat mask made it look like a scene from a horror movie. And then, hook, her fresh scent wafting up to the tip of her nose made Estelle’s actions seem just cute.

“A mask hides the side of yourself that you don’t want to show to others and shows only the side of yourself that you want to show.”

Do you want to show others your cocky Mesugaki side? Is it something Estelle wanted to show by approaching her without hesitation and sometimes acting like a reliable older sister?

I felt a strange sense of discomfort. Estelle said that Mesgaki’s appearance was not acting. If the opposite of being shy is not acting, then how is that possible? Estelle gave the explanation.

“It is true that I am both with the mask on and without the mask. “It’s just that it’s a mask for a certain part of my mind.”

“therefore… “Are you saying that the shy Estelle’s original arrogance was covered up as a mask?”

“Yeah, right…” .”

“Ack, evil! It’s torn, it’s really torn!”

“Who are you calling me arrogant? “You insolent pig!”

I thought it would go away naturally, but without missing the sincerity that came out inadvertently, Estelle pinched my side hard, as if ripping off a piece of flesh.

After barely getting Estelle off me, I even lifted my clothes to check if there was any blood. It’s not a big deal. It hurt that much. Fortunately, I only suffered minor bruising. I slowly lifted my hips and gained a little distance from Estelle.

“Anyway, that’s what it means to wear a real mask. “I only show the part of myself I want to show to others through a mask.”

“I understood the explanation, but… I didn’t understand the method. How can you show only a part of yourself with a mask?”

Unless the mask was an artifact, I couldn’t guess what Estelle’s method was. Estelle snorted as she glanced sideways at the mask.

“Why do you think the mask has some other device? You’re such a stupid pig, you can’t do that! “This is just my preference!”

I thought it was a pretty likely guess, as if it wasn’t an artifact.

“Then what is it?”

In response to my question, Estelle said as if it was obvious, crossing her arms in front of her small chest.

“You materialize a part of your soul and put it on a mask.”

“soul… ?”

“Okay, that’s why I said both sides were me. “Because wearing a mask is part of my original self.”

In an instant, my mind read the traces on its own. Probability plays a role in the setting where the personality is completely opposite when wearing a mask. Because it was probable that a plausible reason could be created even in a poor setting created simply for fun.

I think I finally understand why Raelan told me to teach Estelle how to wear a mask. I am someone who has hope and madness at the same time. The idea is to maintain balance by distinguishing Lily and Ross with masks before the two fight for power and become confused.

Masks can definitely help me. Convinced of that, I grabbed Estelle’s hand, which was fiddling with the mask as if it was uncomfortable, and shouted.

“I want to learn how to wear a mask!”

Estelle, who was holding my hand, flinched her shoulders and tried to pull my hand away, but suddenly stopped and held my hand tightly. Somehow she felt sinister about that action. I feel like my instincts are warning me to get up from the couch and run away immediately.

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As if the sofa had tilted to one side, Estelle slid closer to me. She pulled back to avoid it and reached the end of the sofa. Estelle said with a triumphant smile as she held my hand tightly to prevent me from running away.

“Oh, we happened to be having a discount for the winter vacation. If you add an additional discount to your acquaintances… It’s really a business that benefits only the customers. Oh my, curse. center. Fight. Hey~! Still, we share a common destiny, hehehe! Now, I’ll take you at a reasonable price~ Amber! “Lock the door so customers can’t leave!”

Only then did I realize that I had made a big mistake when I saw the lustful glow in my violet eyes and the harsh tone in my voice that was completely different from usual.