The True Feelings of a Tsundere Are Showing - Chapter 19



19. Feeling cheated

After a lecture that was a lot of talk and a lot of trouble.

“Hey, let’s go.”

“······ Huh? Huh.”

I felt a subtle sense of distance from Han Seo-ah, whom I met the next morning.

Perhaps it was natural.

It was the first time I met her since she did that (?).

Even I was at a loss as to what kind of face I should face with Han Seo-ah right away.

So, aside from this.

The problem I want to talk about happened elsewhere.

“Hey, Hanseo…”

“Na Yeon-ah! Let’s go eat lunch!”

Far from fading away, her subtle sense of distance got worse when she arrived at school.

Even though Thursday is the day when Seoah Han and I have overlapping classes.

Seo Ju-young, who watched me like that, whispered next to me.

“You guys fought? Why didn’t you sit next to me today?”

“······It’s better to fight.”

I wouldn’t be doing this if I had fought.

If it was just a fight, we would have just quarreled as usual.

“Whoa.”

Only a sigh came out of me.

Since it was the first experience she had in her life, she had no idea how to deal with it.

“What nonsense is it better to fight?”

“····.”

“Have you ever confessed and been kicked?”

“······Am I crazy?”

What kind of person does my lord usually see me as?

Are you really crazy?

Let me confess to Seo Ah Han, not to anyone else.

Even assuming she really confessed.

It was hard to even imagine what the results would be in the event of a failure.

Once you look at my relationship with Han Seo-ah, I don’t think we’ll grow apart.

I will probably be teased for the rest of my life.

‘Hey, remember that? What you confessed to me.’ While doing this

‘······ Terrible.’

A truly terrible future in the world.

It was a future that should never come.

When I suddenly became serious, Seo Ju-yeong still had a puzzled look on her face.

“No, well. I think I can.”

“What. I confessed to Han Seo-ah?”

“Uh. What else can I do?”

“······There are many reasons not to.”

“So what is that?”

“····.”

Why is our lord so curious today?

Usually when I asked something, he said he didn’t answer because it was annoying.

But it was funny to keep my mouth shut here and now.

“······It feels like this.”

“Hmm. I see.”

I did my best to explain why I couldn’t confess to Han Seo-ah.

“So, isn’t it a little bit like this? You’re saying you don’t confess because you’re afraid of failing.”

“If you think about the conclusion.”

“I haven’t seen Lee Si-woo like that, but he’s a man.”

“······How on earth can conclusions be drawn that way?”

I thought I explained the reason why I couldn’t confess on my own.

It seems that the explanation did not mean much to the lord.

Seo Ju-young nodded her head as if he was correct.

“Isn’t that right? Whatever the reason, you can’t confess because you’re scared.”

“······It’s correct if you cut the front and back.”

“Then this brother is right.

“····.”

What is it?

This feeling that seems to be slightly acceptable.

I really don’t want to admit it, but this feeling flows in the direction of acknowledging it.

Am I really a man?

You can’t even confess because you’re afraid of falling out?

······But wait a minute.

In the first place, I haven’t even said that I like Hanseo.

When I looked at Seo Ju-yeong, questioning a sudden thought, our lord was making a sad expression.

“It’s a waste. If you nodded there, you’d be stuffed right away.”

“······Was it a build-up for this?”

“Of course. If you nod your head, you’ll have something to make fun of for the rest of your life.”

“Crazy bastard. How is this different from the Han Seo Ah I mentioned earlier?”

I almost got into trouble.

I never thought there would be an assassin targeting my weakness this close.

“Is that so? I guess it’s because you say so.”

“It’s not like that, it really is.”

“Anyway. Whatever it is, it doesn’t change the fact that you’re a man.”

“Why again this time?”

I was starting to wonder.

For what reason is he being treated like a man?

“Even if it’s not necessarily a confession issue, isn’t it that Han Seo-ah is uncomfortable right now and doesn’t sit next to him as usual?”

“······For now.”

“Even though I don’t know why your relationship has become uncomfortable, seeing that you don’t solve it, you’re a man.”

“····.”

“So, if you don’t want to be treated as a man by Seo Young-joo, break things up quickly.”

“······Okay. I’ll write it down.”

I guess so.

No matter how much I do, I can’t be treated like a man by the lord.

“But I know you just said lord with your own mouth…”

“Ah, it’s because of you! You guys call me lord.”

“Yes. Next. Lord.”

“····.”

At least to avoid such a situation.

After today’s class, I thought I should try talking to Han Seo-ah.

***

Time passed quickly.

The end of the last class we predicted came sooner than expected.

As she was preparing to go home, she heard Seo Ju-yeong’s voice from the side.

“Hey, didn’t you say you were going to talk to Han Seo-ah earlier?”

“Uh. She was going to talk about it when she goes back.”

“Then shouldn’t we go together? Hey, Hanseo-ah, he’s leaving.”

“······· Huh?”

She turned her head thinking just in case, and saw that Han Seo-ah was really hurrying out of the classroom.

“Do I go first?”

“Oh, hurry up. If you don’t want to be treated like a man again.”

“····.”

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“Hey, Nayeon Kim! What are you doing after today?”

“Me? Suddenly? What are you doing?”

I left behind the lord who had already cut off his interest from me.

“······Hey. Han Seo-ah.”

“Wow! Surprised.”

I walked as fast as I could and grabbed Han Seo-ah’s shoulder as she walked outside her classroom.

“What is it, what is it?”

“No, why did you leave me and go alone?”

“······Because you didn’t come out.”

“Because I packed my things as soon as I finished?”

“Anyway! You came out late and I was just going to go alone!”

[What can I do, it’s so hard to see Siwoo’s face right now.]

[I tried to run away quietly so Siwoo wouldn’t notice, but he got caught…]

Suddenly I came out late and wanted to go alone, so I did something.

The sentence that appeared as if in response to Han Seo-ah’s words was telling me that my prediction was correct.

“So. You mean I didn’t come out and tried to go alone?”

“·······Yes.”

“Then I’m out now, so it doesn’t matter if I go with you?”

“Wait a minute, why are you suddenly talking like that…”

“Why. You just don’t want to go with me?”

“······No, that’s not it.”

[Ugh. I can’t say I don’t want to go with Siwoo even if I die.]

[What if I say that and get hurt? I mean, I was nervous when I said I was an idiot the other day.]

······If you’re going to worry about whether the other person will get hurt every time you say something like that, shouldn’t you just stop saying it?

It was a situation where I was anxious to get words of this flow out of my mouth.

“Let’s go, then. No problem.”

“·······Yes.”

Because if you did, it would be like revealing that I was reading your thoughts.

As always, I decided to pretend nothing happened.

For getting out of school so slowly.

Walk towards the bus stop as usual.

“Hey.”

“······Why are you calling?”

“Why did you avoid me today?”

I started talking in a slightly lower voice.

There was no particular reason for the low voice.

If it’s just a feature that comes out whenever I say something slightly serious, it’s a feature.

“······Me? When did I avoid you?”

Seo-ah Han is evasive as if she had never done that.

However, all the evidence to refute was already prepared.

“First of all, you ignored me when I called you during lunchtime earlier.”

“I didn’t hear that because I was talking to Nayeon…”

“How do you know it’s a situation where you told Kim Na-yeon that you didn’t hear?”

“·······Ah. That’s right.”

My stupid childhood friend always did stupid things like this.

I don’t think this was the first time.

How naive a person can be easily subjected to such an induction interrogation.

I was genuinely worried that he would be able to live well on his own later.

“Beware of being scammed later.”

“You’re funny too. Do you think I’m the kind of person who would just suffer that?”

“Then what happened just now?”

“······Anyway! I don’t get scammed, so don’t worry!”

[I’m going to live with Siu anyway.]

[Won’t Siwoo be by my side to protect me from being scammed?]

“····.”

I felt like I had been scammed.

Obviously that’s the most shameless and irresponsible idea in the world.

‘······Why do you look cute? Really.’

How come I don’t feel bad after seeing that thought?

Anyway, it seemed that Han Seo-ah was not the one who should really be careful of scams.

“······Cancelled what you just said.”

“Suddenly? Canceling?”

“Oh. I think there are people who need to be careful about that.”

“······What nonsense is that?”

“There’s something like that.”

At this time, I didn’t look directly into the mirror.

It was clear that my face was no different from that of a person whose face was reddened by fraud.