The Vengeance – Crazy Wizard Becomes a Teacher - Chapter 193



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Episode 193

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Hit it, hit it!”

‘Hey. I did it for no reason. What kind of trouble counseling is trouble counseling? It doesn’t help anything either… … .’

“That’s natural. I heard that this is something Ray has been doing for personal reasons for 8 years. But, of course, I feel anxious when someone else offers to do the work I’ve done without any conditions.”

“There are no conditions. “I said I would do it because it would also benefit him.”

“The premise is strange to begin with! “Are personal matters something that can be left to someone else?”

“Yeah… … .”

“Personal matters are important because they are literally personal! You can’t leave it to someone else! Even though it may be insignificant to other people, it’s important to Ray, so isn’t that why you’ve been doing it for 8 years? “If you suddenly want to quit or entrust something like that to someone else, of course you feel anxious.”

Ray rested his left elbow on the chair’s hand rest and took a drink with his right hand.

Mary faced Ray and briefly told him a story about her past.

“When I was young. I learned knitting to make a scarf for my father, who was working hard outside even in the cold weather. “It is said that each strand was knitted even while I was sleeping.”

“… … .”

“At the time, it was my first time knitting, so I had a really hard time knitting just one scarf. The hair is all stretched out and the shape is a mess! Plus, it takes a lot of time.”

“Still, she’s a dutiful daughter.”

“Even now that I think about it, it’s one of the three good things I’ve done.”

“Are there only three good things you’ve done in your life?”

“… … .”

Mary glares.

Ray avoided her eyes and muttered ‘Continue’.

“But somehow, when I made about 80%, I went to bed thinking, ‘I’ll do the rest tomorrow!’ But while I was sleeping, my mother, who seemed to appreciate my efforts, knitted the rest of the scarf for me, right? So what did I say to her mom when I woke up in the morning and saw that?”

“I guess you said thank you.”

“Ding.”

Mary shook her head and scratched her head, saying she was embarrassed.

“Actually, if you think about it now, I think you’ll say something like I’m really stupid… I was mad at her mother then. “Why is she touching mine as she pleases?”

“you… “You were quite an ungrateful child.”

“When I think about it now, I feel really sorry. I was very young back then. “Rather than simply being angry at me for tampering with something that was mine, I was angry at the fact that he was arbitrarily completing what I had worked so hard to achieve.”

Ray also understood what young Mary must have felt when she said those words.

Should I say that it is a characteristic possessiveness of a child?

Ray was like that too when he was young.

But now, that story and Ray’s situation were quite different.

“so? What do you want to say with that story? I heard you made the scarf when you were very young. I am an adult now. I simply want to complete it! I want to finish it! “I’m saying you’re not young enough to be possessive and waste things.”

“Do you have to be young to be possessive?”

“… Usually, even at this age, if you burn something like that, others would call you ‘conceited.’”

“Isn’t that okay? Everyone wants to be special. ‘It’s okay to just say that I’m the only one who can do this right now.’

“… … .”

Ray slowly closed his eyes at Mary’s words.

Then he spoke with a wan smile as if he was putting something down.

“Well, it’s okay.”

“What?”

“It’s somewhat helpful. Counseling on your concerns.”

“Right? “Can I be a counselor?”

“I don’t know about that yet.”

“As a teacher, you tell your students, ‘You can do anything.’”

“Okay, okay, then the second worry.”

“yes!”

“Previously.”

“Previously?”

“Can this drink be refilled?”

“… … .”

Afterwards, Ray confessed his second concern.

Unlike the first concern, this concern was not expressed in a vague way.

I didn’t feel the need to elaborate on this matter, and it was true that Mary’s counseling for my concerns was secretly helpful.

“Did you know that someone attacked the imperial palace mages’ meeting recently in the imperial castle? Because of that, there were deaths among school teachers. “School is closed.”

“yes. “It was like that.”

“One of the teachers who was injured at that time was Teacher Fleur Trueheart.”

“Ah, class 5 homeroom teacher. “I know.”

“Sir… … ?”

“Just move on. So?”

“They say he lost his memory because of the last incident.”

“yes? under… But the kids in class 5 didn’t say that… … .”

“Luckily, it looks like you only lost your memories of the incident and the memories of someone else.”

“Someone’s memory?”

Ray continued speaking calmly.

Although Mary had recently become close friends with class 5 students through split classes, it seemed like she was hearing this for the first time.

“Could it be that someone…” … .”

“okay. it’s me. You just lost my memory. I don’t know if this is possible… They still know me as Innocent. “I said hello last time.”

“iced coffee… … .”

‘That could happen… … .’

Mary was puzzled.

And then I listened to Ray again.

“But I felt quite distraught. It’s only natural that my one and only teacher friend said that he only lost his memory of me. “That’s what I’m worried about.”

“hmm… There is nothing I can do about this. I only lost my memories of Ray… huh? By the way, Ray, were you close with Teacher Fleur?”

“Rather than being friendly… I guess we just ate together once… “I met you on the street the other day.”

“aha… After all, there is no way that Ray, who was born with that spontaneous personality, would be friendly with other teachers.”

“It’s not wrong, but I feel bad?”

‘Is this counseling for concerns?’

Mary seemed to agree with Ray’s words.

“hmm… Are you the only teacher you know? Teacher Fleur… hmm… surely… “It would be sad to hear that your only companion lost his memory.”

“yes? Actually, this cannot be considered a concern. “It’s obvious, right?”

“Yes. I, too, would be distraught if Kia told me that she had lost her memory. As a bonus, can’t that memory loss be cured?”

“well. “They say mental problems can’t be cured with magic.”

Mary studied Ray’s expression.

Ray’s expression looked quite different and more serious than when he had just revealed his first concern.

“by the way… “I didn’t know that Ray had the social skills to share a meal with you just because you met him on the street.”

“I was surprised at that time too. I didn’t know that I was also a person who knew how to eat together with other people. Besides, I didn’t know there was anyone other than Laura or Jean who would want to eat with someone like me.”

“hmm?”

Mary was listening to Ray, then tilted her head and said at the last word.

“Now that I think about it… “Ray, you have a secretly low self-evaluation?”

“It’s high? He has a good-looking face, is good at using magic, and even has experience as a former Innocent and a teacher at a magic school. “Hey, isn’t this the best husband?”

“I guess so… But Ray just said, ‘Something like me.’”

“that… … .”

At Mary’s point, Ray lifted the glass in front of him, took a sip, and then spoke.

“what… That’s because I know that my personality is extremely bad.”

“Is it bad?”

“So do you like my personality?”

“hmm… I can’t say that it’s good even with empty words. “Can I be honest with you?”

“What.”

“For some reason, Ray… No, not just vaguely, but definitely, I think it’s Mosol.”

“Mosol? What is it.”

“I’ve been single since birth. “It’s a popular saying among kids these days.”

“It’s difficult. So what does that mean?”

“Simply put, it means a person who has no experience dating the opposite sex.”

“Heh, me? Ha ha ha ha ha!”

Ray snorted.

He threw his head back and smiled excessively, as if denying Mary’s words.

“Are you there?”

“no. doesn’t exist. “How did you know?”

“You can get an estimate just by looking at it, right?”

“Why is the story of Mosol suddenly coming out? “What’s wrong with my personality?”

“It seems like I have confidence, but I don’t really have confidence in important areas. Moreover, I don’t think Ray has the bad boy style that women like because he is a ‘real’ bad person in a different sense.”

“So, what do you want to say? The problem is that you associate it too much with dating. Last time in Arag Village, didn’t you suddenly ask Sena a question about dating? … .”

“It means having confidence.”

“You know I have a bad personality.”

“That means you have a bad personality for dating, but it’s a different issue from humanity.”

“Then do you think I like humanity?”

“I can’t help it… ‘Teacher’ Ray looks nice.”

Ray was momentarily speechless at Mary’s words and then smiled as if he had resigned himself to something.

Seeing his smile convinced Mary of something, she said after finishing her drink.

“Ray. “Can I give you some advice?”

“you? To me?”

“yes. You might say this advice is childish. No, Ray would definitely say that. Nevertheless, I must tell you this.”

“What?”

“Ray. “Do whatever you want.”

“… … ?”

Ray tilted his head.

“I’m already doing what I want and living my life?”

“is it so? “I don’t think that’s the case at all?”

“In what way does it seem like it’s not?”

“What can I say… I feel like I’m scared for some reason. “If you look at Ray’s actions and tone of voice.”

“I’m scared…” … .”

As Rey tried to deny her words, she remembered the time when she was attacked by the former leader of the Imperial Army’s assassination division.

White said to himself even then.

-Since when did you become such a coward? Ray Vallière?

Are you scared… … .

Ray sighed lightly, as if he didn’t expect the student to hear this too.

When White said it at the time, it didn’t really hit home, but after hearing it from a student like this, Ray himself had to admit that he was scared.

“You feel like I’m scared too.”

“yes.”

“… I tell you. You’re right. I was scared. Since 8 years ago… … .”

‘Okay, let’s admit it. I was scared.’

Pretending to be strong, increasing distance from others, not even procrastinating with the excuse of being inconvenient, but giving up. They lower their self-evaluation and become indifferent to swearing and criticism.

All of these were my defense mechanisms and things that came out because I was scared.

Since I lost my beloved parents 8 years ago.

He was proud of having lived with the sole intention of killing all the people involved in that incident.

But it was inherent.

That thing is fear.

What if you lose your loved ones again?

The fear caused by my experience caused me to refuse to build relationships with others.

Actually, I already understood up to this point.

Previously, when the leader of the Mage Killers attacked, Ronan made him understand and found an alternative.

Maybe that’s why it wasn’t difficult to admit it to myself.

Come to think of it, I received help from a student back then too.

What I am newly recognizing is… That I am ‘still scared’.

The defense mechanism that protected me for eight years gave birth to another defense mechanism.

I don’t like change… … .

Inertia does not simply exist in physics.

It also exists in the human mind.

Many of the things about me that I had kept hidden inside my defense mechanism for eight years were refusing to go back to the way they were before, even though the defense mechanism was gone.

Even though he has given up on revenge, if he does not get revenge, he becomes anxious, refuses to even socialize with others, and even though he says he is great, he does not stop criticizing himself.

“You know, Mary. I am… … .”

Even Laura hates me, Fleur loses her memory, and the students are still afraid of me.

Even myself is trying to disparage me at every moment.

Is there anyone who wouldn’t be scared in a situation like this?

“… “What should I do?”