Time Mansour - Chapter 149
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Episode 149: Regret for the rest of your life
Let’s put on our padding and go out of the house.
The winter wind gently brushes my cheek.
The weather is such that the resolutions held deep in your heart suddenly burst out in your breath.
First, follow the breath ahead and slowly step on the pavement blocks.
So let’s open the studio door and go inside.
Through the gap in the door that was slanted.
“Hey, mister! Welcome! Look at me. How is it? Isn’t it pretty?”
The sight of Sohyun jumping around came into view. Sohyun was spinning around in place, holding onto her skirt with both hands.
I tilted my head at that sight.
It’s the same clothes you wear every day. Even your hair is the same. What’s wrong with it?
I couldn’t figure out what had changed, so I looked at Manager Chae in silence, and Manager Chae pointed to his head with his finger.
It was only then that I noticed the white hairpin on Sohyun’s head.
What should I say to make Sohyun angry?
After thinking about it for a moment.
“How old are you? You’ve already got gray hair?”
I said it exactly as I saw it.
“Sir! Seriously! This isn’t a newt!”
Sohyun raised her small fist.
“Look at it carefully! It’s pretty. Tell me quickly that it’s pretty.”
And then they forced me to give a set answer.
at last.
“I’m sorry. I can’t see it. I have a weak stomach.”
Unable to bear it any longer, I turned my head away.
At that moment.
puck.
My back bent involuntarily as I felt a strong impact on my abdomen.
He grabbed his stomach with his hands.
It’s my mistake.
You should have always looked straight into each other’s eyes and not let your guard down.
I ended up allowing a valid hit without raising my guard.
“Oh my! That was really bad. I hate you, sir. I don’t like you. Go away.”
“I just got here. Where are you going?”
“Get out. Get out quickly.”
Sohyun kicks at me. The sole of Sohyun’s shoe hits the air.
“Don’t be like that. I’m going to be going far away soon anyway.”
“Huh? Where are you going, Youngjun? Are you going out to play again?”
Manager Chae answered on So-Hyeon’s behalf, who was grumbling in anger.
Manager Chae spun around while sitting on his chair.
“No. I’m planning to sort things out in Korea and then move to the US.”
“Suddenly?”
The chair stopped. Manager Chae looked at me with a surprised expression.
“Yes. While running the donation app, I’m thinking about starting a separate business. There’s Jaeshirong there, and I’m also acquainted with many developers.”
Because people who run away originally need an excuse.
Externally, he gave the plausible excuse of business.
“Oh… That’s so sudden.”
“I’ve been thinking about it for a long time. Since I’ve been busy, I thought I’d take this opportunity to go.”
“Still. I’m sad that the director is leaving so suddenly.”
“I’m not leaving forever. Will you come to Korea sometimes?”
“Sir, are you that lazy? It’s almost 10 hours one way?”
“That’s right. It’s dizzying to hear it again.”
“I’m coming. Later, settle down there and call me. I’ll show you around Silicon Valley.”
While Manager Chae and I were talking like that.
Sohyun joined the conversation late.
“Sir, are you really going to America? Why! Don’t go. I’m just bored. Okay. I’ll take care of it today. Just stay.”
“Hey, this is all your fault. The teacher is leaving because you keep saying things.”
“Really? Then, Uncle, are you not coming back at all?”
The children looked sad. They looked as if they were people they would never see again.
Thank you. I felt grateful.
It was a small connection, but I was so happy to meet the kids.
I learned more than I taught.
“Tell them I’m not going. Hurry up. Tell them I’m not going.”
Sohyun grabs my collar. As much as Sohyun gets irritated, my clothes stretch out just that much.
Seeing Sohyun getting angry.
Without me knowing.
“Thank you all so much.”
My true feelings came out.
It’s not like I’m leaving forever.
Da-eun’s eyes became moist. She blinked several times.
Junwoo’s expression also darkened.
It looks like he’s trying to grab me and tell me not to go.
But I can’t bring myself to say anything and just move my lips.
It’s not like I’m going somewhere I can’t return from.
It’s just a few hours by plane.
I feel like we’re having too much of a grand farewell.
so.
“But I think I gained more weight. Why did I get so heavy?”
I touched the easy So-Hyeon.
Unable to support Sohyun’s weight, his knees buckled and his body collapsed.
For some reason.
Sohyun seemed heavier today.
**
At first, he said he would come about twice a year.
“No, you have to come every month. Then I can play with you.”
Sohyun is threatening.
Junwoo looks at the ground.
Because Da-eun was crying.
“Okay. I’ll come once every two months.”
The negotiations concluded dramatically.
After we compromised to come to Korea once every two months.
‘I came here today to say this.’
After finishing my work, I closed the studio door.
Let’s go out to the living room, leaving the kids behind.
“Huh? Rich man. Wait. Just a moment.”
The old man raised his hand and stopped me.
“Yes. How have you been?”
“How have you been? You came at a good time. Look here. Is there anything different?”
Because he said the same thing as Sohyun.
I looked at the man’s hair, wondering if he had a hairpin.
A rare sight. That’s what was there originally. It hasn’t changed.
My gray hairs may have increased in the meantime, but my eye wasn’t good enough to catch them.
I squinted my eyes as if I was looking for a hidden picture and looked the old man up and down.
What on earth has changed? My head is tilting more and more to one side.
Just before my head hit the ground.
“I renovated the living room interior. Doesn’t it look so clean?”
The center director showed up and helped me.
He looks at me and winks with one eye.
“Wow, really. If someone who doesn’t know you saw it, they’d think it was a new building. Did you do all this by yourself?”
He awkwardly raised his thumb, exaggerating his words.
I raised the corners of my mouth with all my might.
**
“When will you come back? Are you going to emigrate?”
“Yes. It’s similar. If I can settle down, I’ll settle down there. If something doesn’t work out, I’ll come back.”
“Yeah. I thought about it carefully. I should try it out while I’m young.”
The man tapped my shoulder.
Even if I’m over eighty, I’ll still be young to you.
With that in mind, let’s take a quick look at the center director.
“Don’t worry. I’ll take care of this.”
The center director nodded his head up and down. The young freshman had grown up in the blink of an eye. He was no longer as worried as he used to be.
Although there are still some areas that are immature.
But there are still old men and other social workers.
We will be able to do better if we help each other and run the business.
like that.
Thinking that I could leave it to you and go.
“Then I’ll go. Please take care of everyone.”
After lowering my head, I gently waved my hands from side to side.
I headed to the subway station with light steps.
**
Fine dining restaurant.
Outside the window, a familiar landscape unfolded. It was a view I had grown tired of seeing since I lived in the moon village. It was a beautiful landscape, but perhaps because I had seen it so much since I was young, I couldn’t take my eyes off of it.
Representative Lee and Director Lee.
While waiting for two siblings.
I opened my math book on the table and flipped through the pages.
‘It reminds me of the old days.’
I always carried a vocabulary notebook with me on my commute to and from work on the crowded subway. Even as I was pushed around by the crowds, I never took my eyes off the notebook.
The days when I studied to survive. Of course, now it’s not as intense as it used to be.
But I was chasing the letters, thinking that it was similar to before.
suddenly.
Representative Lee’s voice was heard from behind.
“Wow, you came all the way here to study? You must be working hard.”
“Oh. You’re here? I was just looking at you while I was waiting.”
I closed the book and put it in my bag.
“But what are you talking about all of a sudden? Are you going to America?”
“Yes. I’m just trying to find out if there’s anything I can do there.”
“No. I told you to go on a trip… What if you really leave?”
“Well, I think of it as half a trip.”
“It’s too bad. I felt secure because Youngjun was here.”
“If anything comes up later, please contact me. I’ll support you remotely.”
“Yes, I will. Oh, my. It’s still a shame. If things don’t work out there, don’t be sad and come back.
The representative left his fingerprint on the wine glass. When he shook the glass, the wine sloshed. While I was talking to the representative,
“Youngjun, you’re here early. Huh? What is it?”
The director stopped walking for a moment and raised his hand.
The tip of the index finger points towards this representative.
“Why is this here?”
“This is for you, oppa. Is that real?”
This and that are criticizing each other.
I called you today.
I guess the siblings don’t keep in touch with each other.
I thought we would know each other, of course.
I didn’t mention it specifically.
“Hey, before that, sit down for a moment. Youngjun, I heard you’re going to America? Did you hear?”
“No? Why? Are you going out to play? Then I’ll take you too.”
The manager pushed his chair back and looked at me.
Because I’m going to repeat the same explanation several times.
I’m a little bored too.
“You know, those guys that director always talks about?”
This time, things started a little differently.
“Ah… those… them. Why?”
“Let’s go see them together.”
I smiled at the director.
This director’s legendary friend.
To be honest, I was half in doubt.
If I go, will I really be able to meet you?
I leaned back in my chair with such anticipation.
“Huh? What are you talking about? He hasn’t had any friends since he was little. Doesn’t his personality just show it?”
I was the first to get spoiled by this representative.
Knock knock.
The director’s chair was pushed back.
Director Lee gets up as soon as he sits down.
“How do you know? Have you ever seen it?”
The scruff of the neck is grabbed by the hand.
“You have to see that. I lived in the same house as you. What kind of guy is that, who just stays home all the time?”
Two people fighting, forgetting that I was there.
A picture of two people bickering.
Than the night view outside the window.
The view here is much better.
All the other customers in the restaurant looked at us.
**
As soon as I got home, I threw on the padding.
Flying towards the chair.
Bam.
Just collapse on the floor.
It seems like I’ve already greeted everyone I wanted to greet.
Well, not yet.
I haven’t been able to meet the band members though.
It was hard to find time because the kids were all busy.
But before I go, I should call everyone and tell them everything.
With that thought in mind, I lay down on my sister’s bed.
I closed the door, thinking that this was the last time.
I look forward for a moment in the stopped time.
Lying in bed, looking at my sister’s memorial photo.
“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.”
I sang the same chorus I always sing.
A room where time stops.
I wonder if it meant to quickly forget about themselves and find a new life.
This mysterious phenomenon seemed like the last consideration my mother and sister showed me.
I was originally a son who didn’t listen to my mother.
also.
Because I was a younger sibling who really hated my older sister.
I didn’t want to do what the two of them wanted.
With regrets in my heart for not being able to treat my older sister well.
I wanted to live my whole life regretting it foolishly.
Even those regrets were just memories to me.