Transformation or Death - Chapter 298



298 – Snake’s Head (7)

Endless suffering and death.

As Jo Ayun predicted, the snake noticed the return and immediately went to her starting point and bit her.

As it moves on a global scale, the unit of speed is also astronomical. It is not something that an ordinary person who has not transformed can keep up with.

The snake appeared right after Jo Ayun returned and bit her neck.

Anyway, this was an episode where nothing was done properly. Jo Ayun didn’t even count the attempts. However, he kept an eye out for opportunities.

1 second immediately after returning. What can we do in this short time?

Repetition dulls people.

When I was first attacked, I was definitely sad and scared. The pain of having my neck cut was dizzying, and I felt hopeless that I couldn’t do anything anymore.

But now that I’ve tried it a few times, I’m starting to get used to it.

This was true not only of the mind but also of the body.

Immediately after returning, I began to notice the snake approaching.

Originally, it was completely taken by surprise due to its overwhelming speed, but now it is possible to predict the approaching direction and time.

Although it was still too fast to react, being able to detect the snake’s approach was a big improvement.

Especially in terms of motivation.

“Fuck that….”

The snake’s expression seemed to be smiling.

Is that beast actually a smiling statue, or is it really laughing at her?

I don’t know what it was, but at least Jo Ayun thought it was a mockery.

No, no matter what, there is a duty. Are you provoking your opponent?

After spawn-killing and tea-bagging, George looks at the enemy and usually shows one of two reactions.

You can either say “good” loudly and give up on the game, saying that it is as difficult as a game.

Or, that b*stard grits his teeth thinking that I will definitely destroy him.

There are people who become more angry the more they get angry.

Jo Ayun was clearly that type of person.

A stocky guy with high self-esteem.

A madman who did not bend his principles even when he was bullied, and instead attacked the instigator.

That was Jo Ayun.

‘Fuck that b*stard, I’m definitely going to piss him off.’

As the regression repeated, my anger built up, and my mind became clearer through anger. I forged my will to escape from this hellish repetition.

I will definitely give this snake a shot.

Of course, there was little hope that the situation would improve even if they were treated like that.

Even if she escaped death immediately after returning, it was clear that the snake would still target her. It was also clear that they were going to hide her body.

Of course, it goes without saying that finding such a snake would be as difficult as picking a star from the sky.

Turn everything upside down with just one success.

I didn’t even want that.

Failure is familiar.

From the beginning, Jo Ayun’s life was a series of failures.

Repetition creates familiarity. Jo Ayun was used to failure.

She was clearly a weak person, and her environment was difficult to call blessed.

People who don’t know Jo Ayun well don’t know that she has delicate sensibilities.

He is a delicate person who cries easily when he watches sad movies, heals while listening to songs, likes pretty and cute things, and regrets that the other person might have been hurt after swearing.

That’s because she made herself up.

Strong smoky makeup, a rough fashion style reminiscent of a rocker, piercings scattered around the ears, and swear words stuck to his lips.

Most people’s first impression is of a gangster.

Even after that, it is difficult to make a good impression.

It was a disguise she didn’t want to be looked down upon. The lower class in the pyramid of the law of the jungle, who forcefully surround themselves with tastes they do not like and threaten others,

If you peel off that camouflage, what remains is a girl who is fragile and full of failures.

People who get over their first impressions and realize that Jo Ayun is not that rough on the inside often ask this question.

-‘Is it necessary to go that far?’

That means they don’t know much about Jo Ayun’s life.

There is a saying that childhood determines the rest of your life.

It may be an exaggeration, but it was a clear fact that bad memories from childhood had a great influence on a person’s values.

For Jo Ayun, who experienced a family environment where yelling and violence between husband and wife was natural, and a school days where she was ostracized just because she was short and had a quiet voice, camouflage was not an option but a necessity.

Jo Ayun, who had been hiding from a fight between her husband and wife, was lagging behind her peers in terms of self-esteem and attitude, and combined with her already poor development, it caused bullying among her peers. Her bullying again caused stress for the couple, leading them to scold her for not playing with her children.

Her weakness pushed her to become a weak person and kept her as a weak person without any opportunity to grow.

I have been a weak person my whole life and have suffered as a weak person.

There was a need to at least disguise his appearance as a strong man.

The camouflage applied not only to the exterior but also to the mind.

Jo Ayun gave up her greed.

The fact that he coveted something was an excuse to scold him, and looking at his peers with envy was an excuse for teasing.

I often failed at exciting challenges such as art classes, presentations during class, and evaluations during physical education classes.

A timid child with no self-esteem.

However, he has pride in his form and will not give up unless he fails until he is convinced.

Jo Ayun, who learned how to fail, learned how to make concessions to avoid failure.

Exactly. I learned not to challenge myself from the beginning.

Without expectations, there is no betrayal. If you do not have the same greed, there will be no challenge and no failure.

The saying, ‘Childhood determines the rest of your life’ was at least a true proposition in Jo Ayun’s life.

Don’t look down on yourself and don’t be greedy.

A great lesson learned from childhood.

If you follow that lesson, you will at least get your money back.

Jo Ayun lived by strictly following that lesson. I followed him desperately to forget the pain of his childhood and fill my head with only good memories. Thoroughly, to the point of deceiving even oneself.

But in the end, Jo Ayun broke that lesson.

Even though I knew, I would have secretly expected this result.

The snake was still biting her neck. No matter how much Jo Ayun turned back time, the result did not change. Her snake killed her, and she died without much resistance.

In a way, I didn’t know that this short repetition was used as an original idea to express this entire life of regression as a synecdoche.

No matter how complicated and cumbersome the process is and how much she resists, she will ultimately become a failure.

It might have been fortunate to repeat the ending and beginning in such a short period of time.

The anger gradually cooled down. Instead, cool-headed reason woke me up.

Is there meaning in this effort?

It was hard to even count how many times it had been repeated so far. What is the point in repeating this effort? Even if you escape this brief repetition, nothing will change.

If we miss the snake here, we will die. The world will perish and become desolate. No matter how much you resist, it is meaningless.

How can humanity, which is powerless, stop the surprise attack by not transforming when the transformation is canceled?

What’s wrong with having an older brother? How dare you have him when you can’t help him. The predicted situation occurred. In the end, Jo Ayun was judged unfit to be Han Jaejoong’s colleague.

It was of no help to him as he became stronger.

What value is there to yourself if you can’t help?

Her beauty does not shine even when compared to Yun Seol-hwa or Baek A-hee, much less Haruna Mitsuki. She’s an ugly woman with ugly makeup on her face. She was who she was.

Whether this return was successful or not, Han Jaejoong would go into the arms of those women.

It’s a futile struggle.

Jo Ayun’s face was reflected in the snake’s eyes. A woman with a devil-like face, her face frowning with anger. She is short, her body is puny, and her personality cannot be said to be particularly nice.

An underdog with numerous failures.

A person who made even the strength he gained useless.

The ending cannot even be called Yongdusami. It won’t even become a snake’s tail.

But even so.

“I don’t want to give up!!”

Even if there is only pain at the end of this hope, I want to keep struggling.

I don’t want to dismiss the deaths that have occurred so far as being in vain.

It doesn’t matter if I come. It doesn’t matter if it’s ugly.

“Because I am a guardian!!”

One who guards and protects.

A person who must protect the dreams, daily lives, and lives of countless people.

I finally found my dream.

If even you deny that dream, who will protect it?

The neck fell off after being bitten by a snake. Life repeated itself once again. The rooftop scene has become familiar to me by now. Jo Ayun quickly looked away. Ara’s body passed by in the corner of my vision, and I could see the sky with only her clouds floating around.

Suddenly, a creepy snake sound came from there. The snake appeared and pounced on him just before he could blink. The inside of the wide-open maw was dark.

A scene just before death that has become familiar to us. The snake’s mouth seems to be telling you that no matter how hard you try, you are a failure. The darkness, the humidity.

Everything broke her heart.

In fact, my heart had already broken a long time ago.

I just force my broken heart and keep going.

‘Give me what to give.’

I’ll give you my heart. Instead, I will bring victory.

I bit my teeth so hard that pieces of my teeth rolled around in my mouth. Blood was flowing from my nose and tears were flowing from my eyes. His hand trembled as he held his butterfly.

My mind heated with anger, I straightened my will and moved my body.

Just before the snake bit her neck, she moved her arm.

hook. The butterfly flapped its wings and flew straight into the snake’s mouth. Pink starlight fluttered faintly in the wind caused by the flapping wings.

For the first time, he succeeded in resisting a snake attack.

And at the same time, success occurred elsewhere.

Countless parallel worlds. Sky Polaris’ observations became more sophisticated day by day, and Jaejoong Han gained more influence from the more sophisticated observations.

The distortion of time became more severe, and the layers of distortion led to confidence, not doubt.

The wind created by the butterfly’s wings flapped, and the pink starlight carried by the wind leaked out white. Jo Ayun’s eyes and even this world. Everything was stained white and black.

The world turned black and white.

Stopped time.

Among them, the only person who had not lost his color came to her side.

“What is this?…”

[Wasn’t that all about snakes?]

It was a moment when meaninglessness gained meaning.